Positive people tend to have many similar characteristics, such as respecting everyone's contribution to a project and knowing during hard times that things will get better. They have the power to make that change happen, an understanding that their attitudes can directly affect outcomes, and a commitment to increasing positive thoughts and diminishing negative ones. Are you putting effort towards becoming a more positive person?
Avoid complaining when things are turning sour, realize that the negatives and the positives in life will level out, and take responsibility for your life and actions. You are the only person responsible for your attitude--and your life.
Not only do I need to remember this now in my disappointment over the holiday - but I need to keep this in mind over the next couple of weeks as I wait for my work situation to resolve.
Yesterday I exercised a lot as I went swimming as well as my normal wii fit workout. I have discovered I can get a pass to swim for FREE too. So I am going to do that as it weill encourage me to swim more often. £3.30 for a swimming sessio isnt that much - but when you only spend 15 or 20 minutes in the pool - the hourly rate looks horrendous. Which is why I dont go much. But popping for 15 minutes a couple of times a week will add a lot to my general fitness - and loks feasible if I am not paying.
I am not getting too hipped up on food while I am in holiday mode. In a way I will be following the beyond choc/mckenna rules better during a holiday. As long as I can discipline myself NOT to nibble.
Last night it was tortilla chips. It was comfort eating as I am still upset over the holiday. But I am regaining my sense of perspective.
Sunday 28 February 2010
Saturday 27 February 2010
Deep breath time
I am feeling a lot better this morning. I am quite tempted to delete yesterdays whinge entry - but I'm not going to. It doesn't show me at my best - but thats why I am going to leave it in so when I re-read this blog (and I do re-read it from time to time) I will remember how I felt - and how I got out of it.
In a world with earthquakes, tsunami's starvation and child exploitation - not to mention sex and drug traffickers - I am lucky beyond belief to be able to book holiday's and to be able to shrug off the cost of cancelling it when I can't get any sort of refund. What right do I have to moan?
But I do need to recognise and honour the depression I felt yesterday. It was real and it had its foundation in real feelings. I was warned a few days ago that I need to pay attention to my feelings and my spiritual side. I need the break and the rest from routine that the holiday away would have given me. Running myself into the ground isn't going to help my family - or the victims of the atrocities I mentioned above.
So I am 'on holiday at home' as of now. And I am trying to do the sorts of things I would do if I WAS on holiday. So I wont be cooking as much. It will e rady meals or takeaways this week. I would normally go on holiday with te aim of going swimming in the mornings before Tony wakes up. So I may just do that this morning. It will be fun ,rewlaxing and good exercise. OK I will have to pay the pool fee - but heavens above I have saved myself at least 100.00 pounds in petrol costs by not doing the drive to and from Scotland.
I have used the wii fit already this morning - just for 15 minures - and will use it again later to complete the 30 minutes.
I have been thinking about what might have happened if we HAD gone to Scotland. I suspect I would have found the drive very stressful and arrived totally exhausted. Also we may well have found when we got there even with no further snow we would not have been able to get out for at least a couple of days. If the final road is as bad as I suspect I wouldn't have wanted to drive on it too often. We would not have enjoyed spending too much time round the resort paying inflated prices for food and with too few intersting activities. We would have spent out time in the apartment watching TV and playing on the computers. Plus I wuld have bene worried about Steve. He isn't seriously ill - but its the illest he has ever been. And although HE thinks he could manage cat feeding duties - I think he is overestimating what he can do at the moment.
So having given myself the kick up the backside I needed I am feeling much more positive and much less self pitying.
I am now off to go swimming!
In a world with earthquakes, tsunami's starvation and child exploitation - not to mention sex and drug traffickers - I am lucky beyond belief to be able to book holiday's and to be able to shrug off the cost of cancelling it when I can't get any sort of refund. What right do I have to moan?
But I do need to recognise and honour the depression I felt yesterday. It was real and it had its foundation in real feelings. I was warned a few days ago that I need to pay attention to my feelings and my spiritual side. I need the break and the rest from routine that the holiday away would have given me. Running myself into the ground isn't going to help my family - or the victims of the atrocities I mentioned above.
So I am 'on holiday at home' as of now. And I am trying to do the sorts of things I would do if I WAS on holiday. So I wont be cooking as much. It will e rady meals or takeaways this week. I would normally go on holiday with te aim of going swimming in the mornings before Tony wakes up. So I may just do that this morning. It will be fun ,rewlaxing and good exercise. OK I will have to pay the pool fee - but heavens above I have saved myself at least 100.00 pounds in petrol costs by not doing the drive to and from Scotland.
I have used the wii fit already this morning - just for 15 minures - and will use it again later to complete the 30 minutes.
I have been thinking about what might have happened if we HAD gone to Scotland. I suspect I would have found the drive very stressful and arrived totally exhausted. Also we may well have found when we got there even with no further snow we would not have been able to get out for at least a couple of days. If the final road is as bad as I suspect I wouldn't have wanted to drive on it too often. We would not have enjoyed spending too much time round the resort paying inflated prices for food and with too few intersting activities. We would have spent out time in the apartment watching TV and playing on the computers. Plus I wuld have bene worried about Steve. He isn't seriously ill - but its the illest he has ever been. And although HE thinks he could manage cat feeding duties - I think he is overestimating what he can do at the moment.
So having given myself the kick up the backside I needed I am feeling much more positive and much less self pitying.
I am now off to go swimming!
Friday 26 February 2010
Changing plans
Well I finally got through to the hotel - who said they had a power cut and were badly affected by snow. According to the holiday club we booked with, they spoke to the resort YESTERDAY and they are open and accesible if you stick to main roads and drive carefully. The final approach to the hotel is down a B road at the side of a loch. I would not be happy about my ability to drive safely down it in bad conditions.
I am wondering how they got through when I couldn't - and if the resort would say the same today if they rang.
We could maybe go up later - but heading that far for a few days isnt sensible and would be tiring for me as the driver. Plus although Steve is better I am still not sure he is up to cat feeding duties. he says he feels OK - but I dont think he has tried to do much.
So I have accepted this holiday isn't going to happen - and we have booked another one in Scotland in September. Sadly we will lose the points for this holiday but hey worse things happen at sea. I really don't have a lot to whinge about .
I have accepted it but I feel like a failure - which is absurd because NONE of it was MY fault!! None of it was anyone's fault. t just wasn't going to happen. Fate was against us.
My ego and self image are taking a bashing. I am very VERY down in the dumps - but logically I know food isn't the answer - but the temptation to comfort eat is HUGE. I went shopping this morning and had a hot chocolate and piece of carrot cake in the cafe. The thought in my mind was that we SHOULD have been having a break at the motorway service station - and that was more of less what I would have had there on the grounds of 'we are on holiday so wtf'
I will pixk myself up from this. Eventually I am sure I will see that not going was beneficial in some way. Tony's concern that we could get trapped up there by the weather may be right.
But no use crying over spilt milk. I will make the best of this situation
I am wondering how they got through when I couldn't - and if the resort would say the same today if they rang.
We could maybe go up later - but heading that far for a few days isnt sensible and would be tiring for me as the driver. Plus although Steve is better I am still not sure he is up to cat feeding duties. he says he feels OK - but I dont think he has tried to do much.
So I have accepted this holiday isn't going to happen - and we have booked another one in Scotland in September. Sadly we will lose the points for this holiday but hey worse things happen at sea. I really don't have a lot to whinge about .
I have accepted it but I feel like a failure - which is absurd because NONE of it was MY fault!! None of it was anyone's fault. t just wasn't going to happen. Fate was against us.
My ego and self image are taking a bashing. I am very VERY down in the dumps - but logically I know food isn't the answer - but the temptation to comfort eat is HUGE. I went shopping this morning and had a hot chocolate and piece of carrot cake in the cafe. The thought in my mind was that we SHOULD have been having a break at the motorway service station - and that was more of less what I would have had there on the grounds of 'we are on holiday so wtf'
I will pixk myself up from this. Eventually I am sure I will see that not going was beneficial in some way. Tony's concern that we could get trapped up there by the weather may be right.
But no use crying over spilt milk. I will make the best of this situation
The Beyond Choc list
Day 9: Today take one minute to think back over the last nine days and appreciate yourself for all the actions you have taken. Formulate the sentence and actually say it to yourself: What I appreciate about myself in the last nine days is...
I am not giving up on myself. I reckon this action is probably the best thing I can do for myself today.
What I appreciate about myself in the last 9 days is
I have kept up with exercise
I have tried to eat mindfully
I have tried to do the tasks on the list to the best of my ability
I have tried to think positively about myself
And it took a lot longer than 1 minute to come up with those items
Its not a very good list. I am having real problems keeping positive at the moment. I am trying to do things - but really dont feel I am succeeding.
I am not giving up on myself. I reckon this action is probably the best thing I can do for myself today.
What I appreciate about myself in the last 9 days is
I have kept up with exercise
I have tried to eat mindfully
I have tried to do the tasks on the list to the best of my ability
I have tried to think positively about myself
And it took a lot longer than 1 minute to come up with those items
Its not a very good list. I am having real problems keeping positive at the moment. I am trying to do things - but really dont feel I am succeeding.
This going to be whinge - you have been warned
I am so fed up I could cry. I feel as if my life is falling apart round me at the moment and I dont have a clue what to do.
Tony and I should be getting ready to go on holiday today - except the holiday is in Scotland which is in the grip of blizzards snow drifts and avalanches. I actually dont think the area where we are going is that badly affected - but the final road to the hotel is a small B road - which probably means its a small county lane. I can't get through to the hotel to ask them what the road is like because their line is out of order - which doesn't bode well for the conditions up there.
To add to our problems yesterday I had to rush my son to A and E after he sent me an SOS because he was feeling so ill. They have diagnosed him with flu/glandular fever and sent him home. He spent most of yesterday alseep on our settee although he did start eating yesterday whihc was a good sign.
He is now back at his house (30 seconds walk away from ours) but he is still feeling fairly rough with little energy to do anything. And he is supposed to be feeding our cats when we go away.
Tony (who is very much a glass half empty type of person) is of the opinion that we should should just abandon the holiday because we dont know if we can get there and he is worried we may get stuck up there if the weather turns bad again. I am desperately unhappy that the holiday I was so looking forward to is being snatched away from me and want to scream at someone.
But arguing with Tony isn't going to improve anything - its just going to make me even more miserable. And it isn't Steve's fault he has fallen ill. I'm just relieved I was there when he needed me.
Mind you waiting in the A and E yesterday brought back memories of Edna.
I feel as if my life is a kaleidoscope and someone has just turned it to create a new pattern.
I feel so selfish to be feeling like this. Part of me wants to scream that I have worked so hard and I bloody well deserve a holiday. But I do understand why Tony is reluctant to go. And I wouldn't be happy 300 miles away worrying about Steve.
It will come as no surprise to find out I have been eating quite mindlessly. Not bingeing on biscuits or anything like that. Just eating my meals with no real thought for how I feel about the food - or whether I am even hungry.
I know I will come out of this - but right now I feel lost and alone and unloved ..... and life really sucks.
But I am going to turn the wii fit on and see if exercise can get some serotonin into my brain and start helping me to feel better about everything
Tony and I should be getting ready to go on holiday today - except the holiday is in Scotland which is in the grip of blizzards snow drifts and avalanches. I actually dont think the area where we are going is that badly affected - but the final road to the hotel is a small B road - which probably means its a small county lane. I can't get through to the hotel to ask them what the road is like because their line is out of order - which doesn't bode well for the conditions up there.
To add to our problems yesterday I had to rush my son to A and E after he sent me an SOS because he was feeling so ill. They have diagnosed him with flu/glandular fever and sent him home. He spent most of yesterday alseep on our settee although he did start eating yesterday whihc was a good sign.
He is now back at his house (30 seconds walk away from ours) but he is still feeling fairly rough with little energy to do anything. And he is supposed to be feeding our cats when we go away.
Tony (who is very much a glass half empty type of person) is of the opinion that we should should just abandon the holiday because we dont know if we can get there and he is worried we may get stuck up there if the weather turns bad again. I am desperately unhappy that the holiday I was so looking forward to is being snatched away from me and want to scream at someone.
But arguing with Tony isn't going to improve anything - its just going to make me even more miserable. And it isn't Steve's fault he has fallen ill. I'm just relieved I was there when he needed me.
Mind you waiting in the A and E yesterday brought back memories of Edna.
I feel as if my life is a kaleidoscope and someone has just turned it to create a new pattern.
I feel so selfish to be feeling like this. Part of me wants to scream that I have worked so hard and I bloody well deserve a holiday. But I do understand why Tony is reluctant to go. And I wouldn't be happy 300 miles away worrying about Steve.
It will come as no surprise to find out I have been eating quite mindlessly. Not bingeing on biscuits or anything like that. Just eating my meals with no real thought for how I feel about the food - or whether I am even hungry.
I know I will come out of this - but right now I feel lost and alone and unloved ..... and life really sucks.
But I am going to turn the wii fit on and see if exercise can get some serotonin into my brain and start helping me to feel better about everything
Wednesday 24 February 2010
My task for today
So todays 'beyond choc' task is to spend one minutes really enjoying what I am eating. I didnt do too well on yesterdays rating satisfaction. Maybe I will do better on this one. My breakfast is nice - and by yesterdays criteria satisfying - but I am not sure it is the right food for todays task. I wonder what that tells me about my food choices?
It was an effort getting up this morning. Thankfully today is my last day at work before the holiday. Hoorah!!
But I surprised myself by doing a longer workout than I thought I would . I only did about 15 minutes - but thats about 10 minutes longer than I anticipated when I turned the wii fit on.
I od'd on peanuts last night - but the packet has now gone so I dont have an excuse any more. Why couldn't I just throw the peanuts away I wonder? Tony doesn't like them so it would only ave affected me? Interesting question
There is no doubt the uncertainties about my future work opportunities are getting to me. I am not worried that I wont have ANY work. I am worried how much I will have to compromise my work/life balance to GET work. Its the fact that my agency are not talking to me that worried me. I am not sure I trust them to be honest with me about work prospects. I have sent Anthony and email today and I hope I get an answer.
My IBS is grumbling slightly this morning which is disconcerting. I dont normally get obvious symptoms apart from the bouts of constipation.
The good news is I can't finish my breakfast because I am not hungry!! So its not ALL bad
It was an effort getting up this morning. Thankfully today is my last day at work before the holiday. Hoorah!!
But I surprised myself by doing a longer workout than I thought I would . I only did about 15 minutes - but thats about 10 minutes longer than I anticipated when I turned the wii fit on.
I od'd on peanuts last night - but the packet has now gone so I dont have an excuse any more. Why couldn't I just throw the peanuts away I wonder? Tony doesn't like them so it would only ave affected me? Interesting question
There is no doubt the uncertainties about my future work opportunities are getting to me. I am not worried that I wont have ANY work. I am worried how much I will have to compromise my work/life balance to GET work. Its the fact that my agency are not talking to me that worried me. I am not sure I trust them to be honest with me about work prospects. I have sent Anthony and email today and I hope I get an answer.
My IBS is grumbling slightly this morning which is disconcerting. I dont normally get obvious symptoms apart from the bouts of constipation.
The good news is I can't finish my breakfast because I am not hungry!! So its not ALL bad
Tuesday 23 February 2010
Rating my satisfaction with what I have eaten
I have decided this is rather harder than it looks. But maybe that is just because today I am horribly aware of emotional hunger. There are all sorts of reasons for this but one significant reason is that today would have been Edna's 88th birthday. I guess its not too surprising that I am not in an upbeat mood.
I will however try to do this exercise today. My satisfaction with breakfast is high. My breakfast is a mixture of textures and flavours that I really enjoy. Fruit and fibre cereal with some fresh kiwi fruit added covered in plain yoghurt. If you have never tried cereal and yogurt I do recommend it. But having eaten it I still feel hungry - and I know its not real hunger.
I have done a 20 minute exercise routine so I have made a good start for today
Yesterday I ended up attacking the peanuts. I am really angry with myself about that. I knew my weakness -why did I open the packet over the weekend?
I am clinging to the fact that I have lost weight over the last year and maintained that weight loss. By the end of this year I will have lost MORE weight.
I have decided to do weigh ins every 2 weeks. I think that will keep me focused better on what I have to do.
But this weight loss has been achieved WITHOUT calorie counting, without denying myself anything I wanted to eat, and without signing up for punishing work outs at the gym. I think my biggest achievement has been my daily workout on the wii fit which will be having other health benefits.
I will however try to do this exercise today. My satisfaction with breakfast is high. My breakfast is a mixture of textures and flavours that I really enjoy. Fruit and fibre cereal with some fresh kiwi fruit added covered in plain yoghurt. If you have never tried cereal and yogurt I do recommend it. But having eaten it I still feel hungry - and I know its not real hunger.
I have done a 20 minute exercise routine so I have made a good start for today
Yesterday I ended up attacking the peanuts. I am really angry with myself about that. I knew my weakness -why did I open the packet over the weekend?
I am clinging to the fact that I have lost weight over the last year and maintained that weight loss. By the end of this year I will have lost MORE weight.
I have decided to do weigh ins every 2 weeks. I think that will keep me focused better on what I have to do.
But this weight loss has been achieved WITHOUT calorie counting, without denying myself anything I wanted to eat, and without signing up for punishing work outs at the gym. I think my biggest achievement has been my daily workout on the wii fit which will be having other health benefits.
Monday 22 February 2010
Weigh in day
Well I have lost a qhole 1lb. Not much for the long time since my last weigh in - but at least I haven't put any on - depite my angst about my biscuit moments. I guess that must say something.
This morning I have done item 4 on the beyond choc list and focused completely on my breakfast food for one minute . I will try to do it again at lunch time. Its a good habit to get into. I was far more aware of the tang of the grapefruit contrasted with the sweetness of the pineapple.And I realise kiwi fruit has a very VERY subtle flavour that you can miss if you dont focus.
I have worked out - but done less than 20 minutes. I will do some more when I get home. I am getting the urge to go walking round the park again but I need to buy myself some proper trainers before I try that again I think. Plus I'm not going to go walking in the dark - or while it is this cold.
Am I a wimp or just sensible?
This morning I have done item 4 on the beyond choc list and focused completely on my breakfast food for one minute . I will try to do it again at lunch time. Its a good habit to get into. I was far more aware of the tang of the grapefruit contrasted with the sweetness of the pineapple.And I realise kiwi fruit has a very VERY subtle flavour that you can miss if you dont focus.
I have worked out - but done less than 20 minutes. I will do some more when I get home. I am getting the urge to go walking round the park again but I need to buy myself some proper trainers before I try that again I think. Plus I'm not going to go walking in the dark - or while it is this cold.
Am I a wimp or just sensible?
Sunday 21 February 2010
A nasty realisation
If I am going to work with my new headhunter friend I am going to have to update and probably re-write my CV. I have realised I am dreading doing it. I find it almost impossible to sell myself. It seems wrong some how to boast . It is my natural british reticence - at least that is what I try to tell myself.
The reality of course is that this is my poor self image coming out again. I am clearly going to have to confront this head on soon because that CV is going to get written whether I decide to approach any of the employers Manie suggests for me or not.
It is disappointing to find my self image is still holding me back after all the effort I have put in. I try to imagine who a potential employer would see me and the words that come into my head are 'fat' 'old' 'plain'. I feel the best way for me to convince someone I am worth employing is by showing them in the workplace. That's why I feel going back to UHB would be my best option. They already KNOW what I can do what I am like. That's why I feel so rejected because they haven't booked me. I feel they know what I can do - and it isn't good enough.
I just hope tomorrow's body test doesn't give me bad news.
The reality of course is that this is my poor self image coming out again. I am clearly going to have to confront this head on soon because that CV is going to get written whether I decide to approach any of the employers Manie suggests for me or not.
It is disappointing to find my self image is still holding me back after all the effort I have put in. I try to imagine who a potential employer would see me and the words that come into my head are 'fat' 'old' 'plain'. I feel the best way for me to convince someone I am worth employing is by showing them in the workplace. That's why I feel going back to UHB would be my best option. They already KNOW what I can do what I am like. That's why I feel so rejected because they haven't booked me. I feel they know what I can do - and it isn't good enough.
I just hope tomorrow's body test doesn't give me bad news.
Saturday 20 February 2010
My food list
I've tried item 3 (or is it 4) on the Beyond choc list today, made a list of all the foods I think I overeat.
Biscuits
Crisps and savoury nibbles
Cheese
Chocolate
Nuts
Interestingly some of these are foods I rarely eat. But when I DO eat them I feel I eat too much of them. So I dont eat crisps often. I dont buy crisps regularly. But when I do open a pack of torillia chips or Dorito's it is a real effort of will NOT to keep eating them.
I have stopped buying chocolate when I fill the car up, stopped buying chocolate to eat as I walk or drive along. We STILL have chocolates left from Xmas - and I am betting they will last until WELL beyond easter. But when they ARE open I can't resist having one or two a day sometimes 3 or 4. Is that REALLY overeating. Answers on a postcard please to..........
I am beginning to feel I am more in control of my eating than I thought I was. Interesting
I have had a productive day today. Done a good workout and hit BOTH my targets this morning, been shopping and done some OU study. Had a chat with my son who popped in to see us (and borrow a macbook charger from us) and I am feeling pretty chipper about everything.
I feel as if I have emerged from some deep place to somewhere filled with sunshine.
Oh dear time to stop before I get even more fanciful.
Wherever you are - have a great weekend
Biscuits
Crisps and savoury nibbles
Cheese
Chocolate
Nuts
Interestingly some of these are foods I rarely eat. But when I DO eat them I feel I eat too much of them. So I dont eat crisps often. I dont buy crisps regularly. But when I do open a pack of torillia chips or Dorito's it is a real effort of will NOT to keep eating them.
I have stopped buying chocolate when I fill the car up, stopped buying chocolate to eat as I walk or drive along. We STILL have chocolates left from Xmas - and I am betting they will last until WELL beyond easter. But when they ARE open I can't resist having one or two a day sometimes 3 or 4. Is that REALLY overeating. Answers on a postcard please to..........
I am beginning to feel I am more in control of my eating than I thought I was. Interesting
I have had a productive day today. Done a good workout and hit BOTH my targets this morning, been shopping and done some OU study. Had a chat with my son who popped in to see us (and borrow a macbook charger from us) and I am feeling pretty chipper about everything.
I feel as if I have emerged from some deep place to somewhere filled with sunshine.
Oh dear time to stop before I get even more fanciful.
Wherever you are - have a great weekend
This needs wider coverage
http://newme-freshstart.blogspot.com/2010/02/quality-quality.html
I really can't say better than this. I have come to the same conclusion from a different angle.
If diets work, why do we have an obesity epidemic?
Thanks Wendy!!
I really can't say better than this. I have come to the same conclusion from a different angle.
If diets work, why do we have an obesity epidemic?
Thanks Wendy!!
Friday 19 February 2010
Life changing again
My head hunter contacted finally got in touch with me and we had a very long and interstig conversation. I am confident she will be able to find me work in community -which will suit me in many ways. it as after all where I wanted to head when I retired.But it will mean working 3 long days rather than 5 short ones. May mean working 1 Saturday in 4. It will be as am employee not a locum. But the hourly rate of pay isnt too bad at all.
Manie is going to help me with CV and presentation at interview. She gets paid by the employers- and the ones she is mentioning to me are Asda and Murrays- but she doesn't think Murrays have any vacancies at the moment.
I am wondering how 3 long days would disrupt my workouts. If I was working say 8-7 I would be leaving at 7. Fitting in a workout,meditation and breakfast in an hour woud be challenging. At the moment I have two and half hours to fir everything in. Well it would be a challenge -but not impossible. And the idea of 2 free days in the week is wonderful!!
Lots to think about.
I tried tuning in before I ate a biscuit last night. It didnt go that well. But I will try again today - if I get the desire to raid the biscuit barrel - and I will try action 2 on the list as well. In fact I have already done it. I tuned in before I started breakfast and decided I was pleasantly hungry. Hungry enough to want to eat -but not so hungry I dont have time to enjoy the food. And I am enjoying my breakfast very much!
I did my muscle/yoga workout this morning - and boy do I know I have done it. I have found that standing straighter really DOES help my balance and posture. 20 minutes hard work - but still quite a long way short of my calorie total.But some aerobics tonight will sort that out.
Monday is my goal day on the wii fit. I have mixed feelings - but I always do have mixed feelings. I never think I will have lost weight do I?
I am going to promise myself I am not going to let my eating go to pot because it the weekend. I was supposed to be having my second reiki training - but it has been cancelled.So I will be at home all weekend. But I am not going to sit around. I am going to start decluttering one of the bedrooms.
Manie is going to help me with CV and presentation at interview. She gets paid by the employers- and the ones she is mentioning to me are Asda and Murrays- but she doesn't think Murrays have any vacancies at the moment.
I am wondering how 3 long days would disrupt my workouts. If I was working say 8-7 I would be leaving at 7. Fitting in a workout,meditation and breakfast in an hour woud be challenging. At the moment I have two and half hours to fir everything in. Well it would be a challenge -but not impossible. And the idea of 2 free days in the week is wonderful!!
Lots to think about.
I tried tuning in before I ate a biscuit last night. It didnt go that well. But I will try again today - if I get the desire to raid the biscuit barrel - and I will try action 2 on the list as well. In fact I have already done it. I tuned in before I started breakfast and decided I was pleasantly hungry. Hungry enough to want to eat -but not so hungry I dont have time to enjoy the food. And I am enjoying my breakfast very much!
I did my muscle/yoga workout this morning - and boy do I know I have done it. I have found that standing straighter really DOES help my balance and posture. 20 minutes hard work - but still quite a long way short of my calorie total.But some aerobics tonight will sort that out.
Monday is my goal day on the wii fit. I have mixed feelings - but I always do have mixed feelings. I never think I will have lost weight do I?
I am going to promise myself I am not going to let my eating go to pot because it the weekend. I was supposed to be having my second reiki training - but it has been cancelled.So I will be at home all weekend. But I am not going to sit around. I am going to start decluttering one of the bedrooms.
Thursday 18 February 2010
From 'Beyond Chcoolate'
I am having trouble with biscuits - as has been obvious from previous entries. So when I spotted this this morning I decided it seemed like a good idea to give item one a go today before I eat a biscuit.
I have decided to give ALL the items a go over the next few days - in fact I may try the whole 30 days course they suggest. After all what have I got to lose -apart from 1 minute a day.
Remember: one, once a day, just for a minute.
Day 1: Today, once before you eat, tune in to your hunger signals. Scan your body from head to toe for any physical sensations connected to hunger. How are you feeling about the fact you are about to eat? What are you telling yourself about the food?
Day 2: Today, rate your hunger once before you eat: are you starving, very hungry, hungry, peckish, not hungry?
Day 3: Today take a minute to make a list of all the foods you crave and overeat. Put a tick next to all the ones that you think are fattening and you shouldn't be eating. What does this list tell you?
Day 4: Today spend the first minute of a meal completely focused on the food. Take a good look at it, smell it, take a bite, chew slowly and let the subtle tastes and textures develop on your tongue. Swallow slowly and follow the food down into your stomach as far as you can. What do you notice?
Day 5: Today, rate your satisfaction once after you've eaten: are you very satisfied with what you eaten? satisfied, not very satisfied or dissatisfied?
Day 6: Today spend a minute enjoying one thing you eat. Give yourself 60 seconds to relish, savour, taste, appreciate. Enjoy it.
Day 7: Today take a minute to list as many adjectives that you use to describe your body as you can think of. Put a tick next to the ones that are kind, loving, supportive, respectful and appreciative. Give yourself a pat on the back for each tick.
Day 8: Today, listen to 'Free 60 secs to Perfect Posture' created by movement practitioner Liz Bussey of BodyMap. Get it now at www.Busseybe.com
Day 9: Today take one minute to think back over the last nine days and appreciate yourself for all the actions you have taken. Formulate the sentence and actually say it to yourself: What I appreciate about myself in the last nine days is...
Day 10: Today take a minute, once, to ask yourself the following questions about the food you are going to eat:
- Do you like it?
- How did you choose it?
- What do you know about it?
- What do you know about the ingredients?
- Do you think it's healthy, unhealthy or 'neutral'
- How often do you eat it?
- Why are you eating it now?
Day 11 to 30: Repeat from Day 1
I have decided to give ALL the items a go over the next few days - in fact I may try the whole 30 days course they suggest. After all what have I got to lose -apart from 1 minute a day.
Remember: one, once a day, just for a minute.
Day 1: Today, once before you eat, tune in to your hunger signals. Scan your body from head to toe for any physical sensations connected to hunger. How are you feeling about the fact you are about to eat? What are you telling yourself about the food?
Day 2: Today, rate your hunger once before you eat: are you starving, very hungry, hungry, peckish, not hungry?
Day 3: Today take a minute to make a list of all the foods you crave and overeat. Put a tick next to all the ones that you think are fattening and you shouldn't be eating. What does this list tell you?
Day 4: Today spend the first minute of a meal completely focused on the food. Take a good look at it, smell it, take a bite, chew slowly and let the subtle tastes and textures develop on your tongue. Swallow slowly and follow the food down into your stomach as far as you can. What do you notice?
Day 5: Today, rate your satisfaction once after you've eaten: are you very satisfied with what you eaten? satisfied, not very satisfied or dissatisfied?
Day 6: Today spend a minute enjoying one thing you eat. Give yourself 60 seconds to relish, savour, taste, appreciate. Enjoy it.
Day 7: Today take a minute to list as many adjectives that you use to describe your body as you can think of. Put a tick next to the ones that are kind, loving, supportive, respectful and appreciative. Give yourself a pat on the back for each tick.
Day 8: Today, listen to 'Free 60 secs to Perfect Posture' created by movement practitioner Liz Bussey of BodyMap. Get it now at www.Busseybe.com
Day 9: Today take one minute to think back over the last nine days and appreciate yourself for all the actions you have taken. Formulate the sentence and actually say it to yourself: What I appreciate about myself in the last nine days is...
Day 10: Today take a minute, once, to ask yourself the following questions about the food you are going to eat:
- Do you like it?
- How did you choose it?
- What do you know about it?
- What do you know about the ingredients?
- Do you think it's healthy, unhealthy or 'neutral'
- How often do you eat it?
- Why are you eating it now?
Day 11 to 30: Repeat from Day 1
Beyond chocolate biscuits
'Today, once before you eat, tune in to your hunger signals. Scan your body from head to toe for any physical sensations connected to hunger. How are you feeling about the fact you are about to eat? What are you telling yourself about the food?'
Yesterday I turned to chocolate biscuits. Don't know why really. Not THAT many - I didnt eat the whole packet but too many and I don't know why. This morning Beyond Choclate popped an action list into my mailbox of 10 things to practise. The one for today is the one listed above. So I AM going to do this in the evening then maybe I wont reach for the biscuit barrel.
I am SO tired this morning and I dont quite know why. I sat down more at work yesterday than I have managed to do for some days. I haven't OD'd on the workout front either.I did have a pretty intense reiki session last night and I have turned the radiator on in my bedroom so it was warmer than normal. Maybe the radiator needs to go off. It could be partly due to the reiki.
I will turn the wii fit on before I go to work. I just don't think I will be doing that much on it.
Yesterday I turned to chocolate biscuits. Don't know why really. Not THAT many - I didnt eat the whole packet but too many and I don't know why. This morning Beyond Choclate popped an action list into my mailbox of 10 things to practise. The one for today is the one listed above. So I AM going to do this in the evening then maybe I wont reach for the biscuit barrel.
I am SO tired this morning and I dont quite know why. I sat down more at work yesterday than I have managed to do for some days. I haven't OD'd on the workout front either.I did have a pretty intense reiki session last night and I have turned the radiator on in my bedroom so it was warmer than normal. Maybe the radiator needs to go off. It could be partly due to the reiki.
I will turn the wii fit on before I go to work. I just don't think I will be doing that much on it.
Wednesday 17 February 2010
Exercise is good for you
I found out just HOW good it is for you this morning. Noy only did my musings finally help me to get to the bottom of my very downbeat mood - but I got a useful metaphor form my exercise results.
My mood yesterday was started by something I didnt even list in my worries. I got conformation yesterday that the accident was judged to be my fault becasue - as the girl on the other end of the phone said ' the other driver had right of way' which left me saying in my head 'I know he had right of way. If I had een him I would have GIVEN him right of way' WHY DIDN'T I SEE HIM.
I need to accept responsibility for that accident but also LEARN from it. I think I have. I have been VERY cautious round junctions since then. Was I not cautious enough before? Well I dont think of myself as a reckless driver - but maybe I need review my driving habits? It won't hurt.
Paul M quotes someone who says when you accept responsibility for your situation you automatically tap into the power to change it. Once I have accepted respnsibility for the accident I can move on and make sure it doesn't happen again. That shoudl stop me imaginign nightmare scenarios in whihc my new car gets stolen, scratched or even written off by OTHER people. The world is not out to get me - and everything is NOT my fault. It is possible LV have cocked up over the cheque - its non appearnce does not mean I have done something wrong.
The metaphor I got was that I got my best score in a long time for tge standing knee pose - becasue I conciously stood up straighter. I found it really improved my balance. So when I stand up for myself ( get rid of the 'its all my fault' paranoia ?) I have better balance and can do better.
Interesting eh?
I woke very tired this morning but I do suddenly feel energised and orgnaised and in control. My back is playing up a bit but I am feelig much more positive now I have worked all the above out.
I can even forgive myself for the chocolate fest yesterday evening - and move on with the golsen rules.
My mood yesterday was started by something I didnt even list in my worries. I got conformation yesterday that the accident was judged to be my fault becasue - as the girl on the other end of the phone said ' the other driver had right of way' which left me saying in my head 'I know he had right of way. If I had een him I would have GIVEN him right of way' WHY DIDN'T I SEE HIM.
I need to accept responsibility for that accident but also LEARN from it. I think I have. I have been VERY cautious round junctions since then. Was I not cautious enough before? Well I dont think of myself as a reckless driver - but maybe I need review my driving habits? It won't hurt.
Paul M quotes someone who says when you accept responsibility for your situation you automatically tap into the power to change it. Once I have accepted respnsibility for the accident I can move on and make sure it doesn't happen again. That shoudl stop me imaginign nightmare scenarios in whihc my new car gets stolen, scratched or even written off by OTHER people. The world is not out to get me - and everything is NOT my fault. It is possible LV have cocked up over the cheque - its non appearnce does not mean I have done something wrong.
The metaphor I got was that I got my best score in a long time for tge standing knee pose - becasue I conciously stood up straighter. I found it really improved my balance. So when I stand up for myself ( get rid of the 'its all my fault' paranoia ?) I have better balance and can do better.
Interesting eh?
I woke very tired this morning but I do suddenly feel energised and orgnaised and in control. My back is playing up a bit but I am feelig much more positive now I have worked all the above out.
I can even forgive myself for the chocolate fest yesterday evening - and move on with the golsen rules.
Tuesday 16 February 2010
Taking responsibility
I have to take responsibility for the fact that I have been eating chocolates and biscuits tonight.
I am stressed and very tired and suddenly keeping positive is just too much of an effort. Its easier to eat chocolate.
What am I stressed about?
I am annoyed about the way my insurance company has treated me
I am annoyed about missing a days work to sort out the car
I am worried that a cheque for 6000.00 appears to be lost in the post.
I am worried about how it can be sorted out if it doesnt arrive tomorrow
I am even worried I may lose the 6000,00 altogether if the insurance company are as unhelpful over this as they have been over other things
I have heard nothing from the agency and suspect I am not even going to get two days a week once the booking at RHH ends
And tonight my son told me his laptop (bought 4 months ago) isnt working - and I am not sure he has the paperwork to prove it is still under guarantee or the time to ring people and sort it out.
Some of these are are so unlikely and far fetched that it is laughable to think they might happen, my sons laptop is nothing to do with me. But right at the moment it feels as if fate is just giving me one last reminder of how unkind she can be.
We are rapidly approaching Edna's birthday (23rd Feb) and the second anniversary of Alan's death (4th March -which is during our holiday) I guess these anniversaries are having a bigger effect on my than I realised. I feel as if everything should be a lot better once we have got over those milestones.
I know I am getting things out of perspective - and it is no excuse for eating chocolate and biscuits - but sometimes positive thinking is just too hard.
Lets hope I feel better once I have had some sleep
I am stressed and very tired and suddenly keeping positive is just too much of an effort. Its easier to eat chocolate.
What am I stressed about?
I am annoyed about the way my insurance company has treated me
I am annoyed about missing a days work to sort out the car
I am worried that a cheque for 6000.00 appears to be lost in the post.
I am worried about how it can be sorted out if it doesnt arrive tomorrow
I am even worried I may lose the 6000,00 altogether if the insurance company are as unhelpful over this as they have been over other things
I have heard nothing from the agency and suspect I am not even going to get two days a week once the booking at RHH ends
And tonight my son told me his laptop (bought 4 months ago) isnt working - and I am not sure he has the paperwork to prove it is still under guarantee or the time to ring people and sort it out.
Some of these are are so unlikely and far fetched that it is laughable to think they might happen, my sons laptop is nothing to do with me. But right at the moment it feels as if fate is just giving me one last reminder of how unkind she can be.
We are rapidly approaching Edna's birthday (23rd Feb) and the second anniversary of Alan's death (4th March -which is during our holiday) I guess these anniversaries are having a bigger effect on my than I realised. I feel as if everything should be a lot better once we have got over those milestones.
I know I am getting things out of perspective - and it is no excuse for eating chocolate and biscuits - but sometimes positive thinking is just too hard.
Lets hope I feel better once I have had some sleep
Who was Albert Ellis?
The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own. You do not blame them on your mother, the ecology, or the president. You realize that you control your own destiny.
- Albert Ellis
I dont know who this man is or was - but he was right. Ever since I took control of my life and accepted that I was responsible for my actions ,responses and feelings things have been great.
Paul McKenna says that in his work understanding how you are the way you are is the booby prize. So I can understand that I developed bad eating habits and became an overweight adult because my Mum spent the whole of my childhood telling me I was fat. But it isn't Mum's fault that I am overweight - she was trying to help me. I fact with the benefit of hindaight Mum had problems too because she spent my whole life dieting and she wasn't fat. No she had her effect on my self image - but I was the one who put the food in my mouth and developed bad eating habits when I left home.
Yesterday if it could go wrong it did. No news about the job, the courtesy car is unexpectedly having to go back much earlier than I thought, today I am having to miss work to sort out picking up the new car early and my feelings about the insurance company are almost unprintable. But I didnt comfort eat, I haven't sat around moaning about how unfair life is I adjusted my plans, accepted I would be losing money by not working today, and even saw that this way things are actually easier for me. Because I am responsible for how I think and feel.
Taking responsibiity for my thoughts and actions was the most important change I made three and half years ago - and is one of the things that now enables me to have a much more positive self image.
I hope this doesn't sound like boasting - it isn't. This entry is made out of a sense of relief that I didnt fall apart yesterday. Also I know how much self image can sabotage attempts to lose weight. If that statement helps any random reader who may stumble on this blog entry and gives them a new strategy to help them I will be so pleased.
- Albert Ellis
I dont know who this man is or was - but he was right. Ever since I took control of my life and accepted that I was responsible for my actions ,responses and feelings things have been great.
Paul McKenna says that in his work understanding how you are the way you are is the booby prize. So I can understand that I developed bad eating habits and became an overweight adult because my Mum spent the whole of my childhood telling me I was fat. But it isn't Mum's fault that I am overweight - she was trying to help me. I fact with the benefit of hindaight Mum had problems too because she spent my whole life dieting and she wasn't fat. No she had her effect on my self image - but I was the one who put the food in my mouth and developed bad eating habits when I left home.
Yesterday if it could go wrong it did. No news about the job, the courtesy car is unexpectedly having to go back much earlier than I thought, today I am having to miss work to sort out picking up the new car early and my feelings about the insurance company are almost unprintable. But I didnt comfort eat, I haven't sat around moaning about how unfair life is I adjusted my plans, accepted I would be losing money by not working today, and even saw that this way things are actually easier for me. Because I am responsible for how I think and feel.
Taking responsibiity for my thoughts and actions was the most important change I made three and half years ago - and is one of the things that now enables me to have a much more positive self image.
I hope this doesn't sound like boasting - it isn't. This entry is made out of a sense of relief that I didnt fall apart yesterday. Also I know how much self image can sabotage attempts to lose weight. If that statement helps any random reader who may stumble on this blog entry and gives them a new strategy to help them I will be so pleased.
Monday 15 February 2010
Dont you just HATE insurance companies
I have GOT to let off steam about this.
When I got home from work, I found out that the insurance on the courtesy car is not being carried on after tomorrow and I have had to beg and plead for that.The first information I had was that the insurance ended today -in whihc case I couldnt even drive the car back to the car hire office.
The reason the insurance is being ended is because they only cover the courtesy car for 4 days from the date of ISSUE of the settlement cheque. This apparently was sent on Friday (although I havent seen it yet) How the donald duck are you meant to sort out and purchase a new car when you havent even had the money???
As it is I had picked a car already and luckliy I AM in a position to pay for it before the cheque arrives.If I wasnt - and most people wouldn't be - they would be an awful position!!!
So instead of going to work tomorrow ( and that is going to cost me over 100.00 in lost wages) I have to take the courtesy car back then assuming my car can be made ready to pick up tomorrow treck 9 miles across town to pick up the Fabia.
Being fair the idea of not going to work tomorrow is not unpleasant. And being able to return the courtesy car at leisure rather than rushing over after work - then having to get back on the bus is also appealing.
I am sure it will all work out better this way - but I do think the insurance company are being very VERY unhelpful -and I am probably going to take my business elsewhere.
Rant over.
When I got home from work, I found out that the insurance on the courtesy car is not being carried on after tomorrow and I have had to beg and plead for that.The first information I had was that the insurance ended today -in whihc case I couldnt even drive the car back to the car hire office.
The reason the insurance is being ended is because they only cover the courtesy car for 4 days from the date of ISSUE of the settlement cheque. This apparently was sent on Friday (although I havent seen it yet) How the donald duck are you meant to sort out and purchase a new car when you havent even had the money???
As it is I had picked a car already and luckliy I AM in a position to pay for it before the cheque arrives.If I wasnt - and most people wouldn't be - they would be an awful position!!!
So instead of going to work tomorrow ( and that is going to cost me over 100.00 in lost wages) I have to take the courtesy car back then assuming my car can be made ready to pick up tomorrow treck 9 miles across town to pick up the Fabia.
Being fair the idea of not going to work tomorrow is not unpleasant. And being able to return the courtesy car at leisure rather than rushing over after work - then having to get back on the bus is also appealing.
I am sure it will all work out better this way - but I do think the insurance company are being very VERY unhelpful -and I am probably going to take my business elsewhere.
Rant over.
Listening to what your body tells you part 2
It is Monday morning and normally after a weekend I would expect to feel quite energised and raring to go. I am not and I have been trying to work out why.
I did go out on Saturday and Sunday over the weekend - but none of the trips was a long drive and 2 of the 3 were for pleasure. Family life was very enjoyable. My meditations went well. All in all it was a good weekend.
OK I am obviously on tenterhooks about this possible job offer and what it may mean for my finances but it is not a serious worry. I know that I am not tied to it long term and that if something better comes along I can just go at a weeks notice. I am alos confident (maybe over confident) that I will find some other work for a day or two a week.
The image that is bugging me is me at work at RHH. I am dreading another day on my feet.This is clearly an indication that leaving RHH is a good idea. If the new scheme allowed me to sit down more consistently (the way it did when it was first implemented) I wouldn't be dreading work so much. But there is no doubt last weeks frantic pace has tired me out much MUCH more than I realised. Hopefully this week will be quiter and I will be able to sit down more. There is a lesson for me there I think. I had been saying I could increase my hours to 30 a week for them - I think I was being very optimistic.
It was a struggle getting out of bed this morning - but I did manage a workout. I did my old 10 10 10 routine except the middle 10 was only 8 and it was only boxing. Jogging was NOT on the menu. As well as being too tired to face it my back is niggling at me.
Food went really well yesterday. I had a sensible diet, sensible portions, ate when I was hungry and stopped when I had had enough. I do serve myself smaller portions now than I used to. I know Paul would say keep portions the normal size because it keeps you in the dieters mentality - but I now have a much better idea of what will satisfy me. A l plate piled high with food would put me off now.
Breakfast today is a moderate prtion of fruit and fibre cereal with yoghurt and I am eating it slowly - washing it down with a glass of water..
So despite being tired I am starting off OK. lets hope work goes OK too
I did go out on Saturday and Sunday over the weekend - but none of the trips was a long drive and 2 of the 3 were for pleasure. Family life was very enjoyable. My meditations went well. All in all it was a good weekend.
OK I am obviously on tenterhooks about this possible job offer and what it may mean for my finances but it is not a serious worry. I know that I am not tied to it long term and that if something better comes along I can just go at a weeks notice. I am alos confident (maybe over confident) that I will find some other work for a day or two a week.
The image that is bugging me is me at work at RHH. I am dreading another day on my feet.This is clearly an indication that leaving RHH is a good idea. If the new scheme allowed me to sit down more consistently (the way it did when it was first implemented) I wouldn't be dreading work so much. But there is no doubt last weeks frantic pace has tired me out much MUCH more than I realised. Hopefully this week will be quiter and I will be able to sit down more. There is a lesson for me there I think. I had been saying I could increase my hours to 30 a week for them - I think I was being very optimistic.
It was a struggle getting out of bed this morning - but I did manage a workout. I did my old 10 10 10 routine except the middle 10 was only 8 and it was only boxing. Jogging was NOT on the menu. As well as being too tired to face it my back is niggling at me.
Food went really well yesterday. I had a sensible diet, sensible portions, ate when I was hungry and stopped when I had had enough. I do serve myself smaller portions now than I used to. I know Paul would say keep portions the normal size because it keeps you in the dieters mentality - but I now have a much better idea of what will satisfy me. A l plate piled high with food would put me off now.
Breakfast today is a moderate prtion of fruit and fibre cereal with yoghurt and I am eating it slowly - washing it down with a glass of water..
So despite being tired I am starting off OK. lets hope work goes OK too
Sunday 14 February 2010
Listening to what your body tells you
I overslept this morning. OK 8.30 may not be that late for a Sunday morning but is unusual for me not to be wide awake by 7.00 But when I woke up just after 6 I put the radio and snuggled down - and went straight back to sleep. I was more tired than I thought and clearly needed the sleep.
So I didnt rush around like a mad thing doig work outs and then going to buy a car. Instead I had a bath and relaxed. Chatted to Tony - to try and persuade him to come car shopping with me. I failed but he decided he wanted a bath so I went car shopping without rushing while he was in the bath. So I dont feel guilty about going out without him.
The result is I am relxed, he is relaxed, I have bought excatly the car I wanted and I am feeling ready to do something on the wii fit without it being a real effort of will.
I have eaten some mini wheats with yoghurt, a peanut butter sandwich and one and half rich tea biscuits. Everything was what I really wanted and all eaten slowly. And I am still on a high from only managing to eat about 2/3 of my curry last night. The rest will be a tasty lunch at work.
My body has been telling me exactly what it wants and I am listening and more importantly ACTING on what it tells me - and as a result I feel good.
I hope all my fellow bloggers and any non bloggers who read this have a good Sunday. I certainly am. Love and light to you all
So I didnt rush around like a mad thing doig work outs and then going to buy a car. Instead I had a bath and relaxed. Chatted to Tony - to try and persuade him to come car shopping with me. I failed but he decided he wanted a bath so I went car shopping without rushing while he was in the bath. So I dont feel guilty about going out without him.
The result is I am relxed, he is relaxed, I have bought excatly the car I wanted and I am feeling ready to do something on the wii fit without it being a real effort of will.
I have eaten some mini wheats with yoghurt, a peanut butter sandwich and one and half rich tea biscuits. Everything was what I really wanted and all eaten slowly. And I am still on a high from only managing to eat about 2/3 of my curry last night. The rest will be a tasty lunch at work.
My body has been telling me exactly what it wants and I am listening and more importantly ACTING on what it tells me - and as a result I feel good.
I hope all my fellow bloggers and any non bloggers who read this have a good Sunday. I certainly am. Love and light to you all
Saturday 13 February 2010
Working things out
Yesterday was extremely tiring at work.My workout time was 5 minutes in the morning. I had no energy to day anything else in the evening.
But this morning I did 30 minutes straight off. It was only free step - but its 30 minutes of moving my body and that is all that matters.
Food yesterday wasn't too bad. No biscuit or chocolate fests when I wasn't really hungry - but my dessert yesterday was biscuits rather than fruit. I was tired and a little bit anxious about things and I guess my body needed the carbs and sugar.
I got an unexpected offer of work last night.An agency I didnt even know had my details rang me out of the blue to say that a had a vacancy for a part time locum at a hospital in Birmingham. That's the good news. The bad news is its only 15 hours a week - half what I want to work AND I think the hourly rate may be lower than now. But I am not committed to anything. I have asked for more details. And I can leave at a weeks notice if something better comes up
I reckon 15 hours a week is better than nothing - but I am not sure how good my chaces are of finding something that is more hours a week are? I don;t know what my chances are of ending up with no regular work.
Another piece of bad news - if not unexpected - is that my car has been written off and I now need to find a buy a new one. Trouble is finding the time to do it - and working out how much I can afford when I have no idea what my income is going to be.
That thumping sound you can hear is me banging my head against a wall as I try to figure out these and other conundra in my life at the moment. But at least I haven't resorted to comfort eating!
But this morning I did 30 minutes straight off. It was only free step - but its 30 minutes of moving my body and that is all that matters.
Food yesterday wasn't too bad. No biscuit or chocolate fests when I wasn't really hungry - but my dessert yesterday was biscuits rather than fruit. I was tired and a little bit anxious about things and I guess my body needed the carbs and sugar.
I got an unexpected offer of work last night.An agency I didnt even know had my details rang me out of the blue to say that a had a vacancy for a part time locum at a hospital in Birmingham. That's the good news. The bad news is its only 15 hours a week - half what I want to work AND I think the hourly rate may be lower than now. But I am not committed to anything. I have asked for more details. And I can leave at a weeks notice if something better comes up
I reckon 15 hours a week is better than nothing - but I am not sure how good my chaces are of finding something that is more hours a week are? I don;t know what my chances are of ending up with no regular work.
Another piece of bad news - if not unexpected - is that my car has been written off and I now need to find a buy a new one. Trouble is finding the time to do it - and working out how much I can afford when I have no idea what my income is going to be.
That thumping sound you can hear is me banging my head against a wall as I try to figure out these and other conundra in my life at the moment. But at least I haven't resorted to comfort eating!
Friday 12 February 2010
The end of a tiring week
'There is no difference between living and learning...it is impossible and misleading and harmful to think of them as being separate.'
Sparkpeoples reflection seems tailored to me i the week I have started my OU course- but it applies equally to my journey to a fitter me.
I have certainly lived this week. What have I learned?
Keeping focussed on where you want to go does help. Everytime I touch my phone case I think of that peice of paper. It keeps me focussed on my eating habits. And looking back this week has been quite good.
I still don;t have the physical stamina I would like. My over enthusiastic workout on onday and Tuesday, couples with work being busy with little chance to sit down have left me really REALLY tired on this chilly Friday morning. In fact I overslept.
I can manage everything I need to do if I put my mind to it. This has given me confidence that I will not have to give up anything major to complete my OU course.
Continuous practice does get things to the point where it becomes habit. I had no thought og NOT using the wii fit this morning. But I only did 5 minutes. And today I have clcked up 12 weeks unbroken use. My next wi fit goal day will come at the end of 90 days continuous use. That number has a strange familiarity - and I didnt pick a goal date to coincide with that - its chance. Maybe a good omen? I hope so.
It is freezing cold here, I am tired, SO glad its the weekend tomorrow, and at the moment can't wait for work to be over - and I haven't even got there yet! But its been a good week on the whole - and I hope it will be a good weekend
Sparkpeoples reflection seems tailored to me i the week I have started my OU course- but it applies equally to my journey to a fitter me.
I have certainly lived this week. What have I learned?
Keeping focussed on where you want to go does help. Everytime I touch my phone case I think of that peice of paper. It keeps me focussed on my eating habits. And looking back this week has been quite good.
I still don;t have the physical stamina I would like. My over enthusiastic workout on onday and Tuesday, couples with work being busy with little chance to sit down have left me really REALLY tired on this chilly Friday morning. In fact I overslept.
I can manage everything I need to do if I put my mind to it. This has given me confidence that I will not have to give up anything major to complete my OU course.
Continuous practice does get things to the point where it becomes habit. I had no thought og NOT using the wii fit this morning. But I only did 5 minutes. And today I have clcked up 12 weeks unbroken use. My next wi fit goal day will come at the end of 90 days continuous use. That number has a strange familiarity - and I didnt pick a goal date to coincide with that - its chance. Maybe a good omen? I hope so.
It is freezing cold here, I am tired, SO glad its the weekend tomorrow, and at the moment can't wait for work to be over - and I haven't even got there yet! But its been a good week on the whole - and I hope it will be a good weekend
Thursday 11 February 2010
A new start
I have started my OU course and have started another blog to keep track of my progress. If you want to check it out its called 'Me and the Open University'
When I look back it is amazing how my life has changed since I started this blog. Doing this OU course could be the start of another major change. Time will tell
Food and exercise went OK yesterday on the whole. I didn't do any jogging but did hit both my time and calorie targets. But I am quite tired and I know things tends to slip more when I am tired. This morning I can't decide what to make for lunch and can't raise the enthusiasm to make anything interesting. I think I will treat myself to something from the coffee shop.
I have done my muscle and yoga routine this morning plus a little bit if step aerobics. I am becoming quite concerned about the weakness of my right leg. I don't know if it is due to my previous back history of its something to do with the accident but I have far more problems with the exercises that involve balancing on one leg than I used to. I will stick at what I am doing and hope the exercise helps to strengthen it back to what it was.
I am still intrigued by my meditation yesterday. I do feel the image of me embracing my thinner self is important. But I can imagine who weird this sounds to anyone who doesn't practice visualisations!!
I really AM tired today - and I think I MUST pace myself next week with my workouts. I am fixated on jogging because of the race for life - but I wont have failed if I walk the whole 5K - and anyway I have 4 months to try and get myself fitter. I dont have to do it all in the first week. I am NOT superwoman!!
When I look back it is amazing how my life has changed since I started this blog. Doing this OU course could be the start of another major change. Time will tell
Food and exercise went OK yesterday on the whole. I didn't do any jogging but did hit both my time and calorie targets. But I am quite tired and I know things tends to slip more when I am tired. This morning I can't decide what to make for lunch and can't raise the enthusiasm to make anything interesting. I think I will treat myself to something from the coffee shop.
I have done my muscle and yoga routine this morning plus a little bit if step aerobics. I am becoming quite concerned about the weakness of my right leg. I don't know if it is due to my previous back history of its something to do with the accident but I have far more problems with the exercises that involve balancing on one leg than I used to. I will stick at what I am doing and hope the exercise helps to strengthen it back to what it was.
I am still intrigued by my meditation yesterday. I do feel the image of me embracing my thinner self is important. But I can imagine who weird this sounds to anyone who doesn't practice visualisations!!
I really AM tired today - and I think I MUST pace myself next week with my workouts. I am fixated on jogging because of the race for life - but I wont have failed if I walk the whole 5K - and anyway I have 4 months to try and get myself fitter. I dont have to do it all in the first week. I am NOT superwoman!!
Wednesday 10 February 2010
Meditation
I meditated this morning using my reiki charged paper and my daily tarot card as the focus. In the meditation I found myself in a glade in some woods. In the glade was a thinner me. I went up and embraced that thinner me.
I think that is the first time I have ever really visualised a thinner me. The tarot card that I picked is supposed to indicate fear of losing something. (My immediate thought was that it indicated something had been completed and packed away) I am wondering if subconsciously I have been scared to lose weight and that finally whatever it was has gone.
Do I think the reiki had anything to do with it? I don't have a clue. Do I think that now I will suddenly start to lose weight successfully and faster than I have done up to now? I don't have a clue.Do I think any of this will do any harm? Absolutely not.
Has this helped my confidence and positivity? You bet it has.
I think that is the first time I have ever really visualised a thinner me. The tarot card that I picked is supposed to indicate fear of losing something. (My immediate thought was that it indicated something had been completed and packed away) I am wondering if subconsciously I have been scared to lose weight and that finally whatever it was has gone.
Do I think the reiki had anything to do with it? I don't have a clue. Do I think that now I will suddenly start to lose weight successfully and faster than I have done up to now? I don't have a clue.Do I think any of this will do any harm? Absolutely not.
Has this helped my confidence and positivity? You bet it has.
Ouch!!
I did a second jogging session yesterday - the long jog - not even the island lap. My bacj is now objecting to 4 jogging sessions in 2 days. I think I MAY have overdone it a bit. So I have done a very moderate workout this morning.
Food yesterday went OK. At one point in the evening I was hungry - but decided I wanted cheese and crackers so didnt reach for the biscuit barrel. But after a grim day at work (not busy but a bad atmosphere) my brain needed a serotonin boost from some chocolates ( we are still ploughing through a tin of Quality Street we got as a present at Xmas). Well at least I am being honest about why I ate them.
I am keeping my piece of reiki paper with me in my phone case, It keeps the intention of the piece of paper in mind. And focussing on that intention can only be beneficial IMO.
I got though 500ml of water at work and at least 500ml at home.
Breakfast this morning was the remains of yesterdays plus a bit of cereal. I have eaten it slowly, had some water and am not hungry any more.
I feel in control - but tired. getting up this morning was an effort. I must listen to what my body is telling and NOT overdo things
Food yesterday went OK. At one point in the evening I was hungry - but decided I wanted cheese and crackers so didnt reach for the biscuit barrel. But after a grim day at work (not busy but a bad atmosphere) my brain needed a serotonin boost from some chocolates ( we are still ploughing through a tin of Quality Street we got as a present at Xmas). Well at least I am being honest about why I ate them.
I am keeping my piece of reiki paper with me in my phone case, It keeps the intention of the piece of paper in mind. And focussing on that intention can only be beneficial IMO.
I got though 500ml of water at work and at least 500ml at home.
Breakfast this morning was the remains of yesterdays plus a bit of cereal. I have eaten it slowly, had some water and am not hungry any more.
I feel in control - but tired. getting up this morning was an effort. I must listen to what my body is telling and NOT overdo things
Tuesday 9 February 2010
Good habits and bad habits
What leaps of faith are you willing to take?
Trying new things can give you a real zest for life. Pushing beyond your comfort zone in a responsible way helps you grow confidence and creativity that you can apply to your everyday life. Do not let fear control what you do (or don't) do? While taking risks can be scary, doing nothing is a big mistake, as it produces nothing fruitful within you. There is a direct relationship between the things that we achieve and the effort we put forth to obtain them. To reach the fruit, you have to climb the tree first!
OK the above reflection may look as if it has little to do with title of this blog. But the above reflection really spoke to me. Once I would have not have been prepared to take a risk. Now I am and my life is looking so much better. 4 years ago imminent redundancy and a car crash within the space of a week would have reduced me to gibbering wreck. But I am sailing through this current crisis in an almost unbelievably positive frame of mind. The difference is I now expect good things to happen. 4 years ago I only expected bad stuff.
I got into the habit of positive thought. To maintain my positivity I'm going to try and list all the other good habits I have managed to acquire over the past 3 years.
Drinking water - ok not always as much as I should be I do have water almost every day
Not buying chocolate bars when I fill the car with petrol.
Taking time over preparing food that I really enjoy for breakfast and lunch. I eat better, and healthier food and by taking the time I affirm to myself that I matter that I am worth taking some time over
Eating more slowly. I am getting there - this one is a real struggle at times - especially during a 30 minute lunch break. But this morning I am going to leave half of the fruit and yoghurt I prepared . I am quite simply not hungry any more.
Exercise - even if its only 10 minutes or maybe even one exercise the Wii fit ets used every day. Trust me a year ago when I frst got the wii fit I could not imagine having the stamina to do the 30 minute routine that is now my standard. ( My workout this morning left me 1 minute and 16 calories short of my goal for today) And as for entering the race for life with the intention of jogging ANY of it - well it wouldn't have happened.
I can see for myself how much exercise helps. Tony has slimmed down so much. It bothers me that I can't see similar changes in myself. My body image is still bad. I never expect to have lost weight when I do a body test and I am eyeing the flag on the wii fit calendar with a certain amount of trepidation. But I will do a body test on my goal date. And no doubt blog about the result.
I have mananged to break some bad habits and get some new healthier ones. It has taken time and hasn't been easy but practice makes perfect.
I will keep on practicing.
Trying new things can give you a real zest for life. Pushing beyond your comfort zone in a responsible way helps you grow confidence and creativity that you can apply to your everyday life. Do not let fear control what you do (or don't) do? While taking risks can be scary, doing nothing is a big mistake, as it produces nothing fruitful within you. There is a direct relationship between the things that we achieve and the effort we put forth to obtain them. To reach the fruit, you have to climb the tree first!
OK the above reflection may look as if it has little to do with title of this blog. But the above reflection really spoke to me. Once I would have not have been prepared to take a risk. Now I am and my life is looking so much better. 4 years ago imminent redundancy and a car crash within the space of a week would have reduced me to gibbering wreck. But I am sailing through this current crisis in an almost unbelievably positive frame of mind. The difference is I now expect good things to happen. 4 years ago I only expected bad stuff.
I got into the habit of positive thought. To maintain my positivity I'm going to try and list all the other good habits I have managed to acquire over the past 3 years.
Drinking water - ok not always as much as I should be I do have water almost every day
Not buying chocolate bars when I fill the car with petrol.
Taking time over preparing food that I really enjoy for breakfast and lunch. I eat better, and healthier food and by taking the time I affirm to myself that I matter that I am worth taking some time over
Eating more slowly. I am getting there - this one is a real struggle at times - especially during a 30 minute lunch break. But this morning I am going to leave half of the fruit and yoghurt I prepared . I am quite simply not hungry any more.
Exercise - even if its only 10 minutes or maybe even one exercise the Wii fit ets used every day. Trust me a year ago when I frst got the wii fit I could not imagine having the stamina to do the 30 minute routine that is now my standard. ( My workout this morning left me 1 minute and 16 calories short of my goal for today) And as for entering the race for life with the intention of jogging ANY of it - well it wouldn't have happened.
I can see for myself how much exercise helps. Tony has slimmed down so much. It bothers me that I can't see similar changes in myself. My body image is still bad. I never expect to have lost weight when I do a body test and I am eyeing the flag on the wii fit calendar with a certain amount of trepidation. But I will do a body test on my goal date. And no doubt blog about the result.
I have mananged to break some bad habits and get some new healthier ones. It has taken time and hasn't been easy but practice makes perfect.
I will keep on practicing.
Monday 8 February 2010
A positive day
I have had a positive day. This morning I did my full workout for the first time in days - including jogging and boxing. And tonight when I got home I did another 15 minutes using the warm up and overindulged routines. I clocked up 217 calories. Go me!!!!
Food has gone well - not brilliant but well. And as an added bonus someone at work asked me if I had lost weight because I looked thinner
Go me!!!!!
I feel good with a capital F for fantastic. I still don't know about my car or the job - but I still have confidence things will work out Ok
Something is working for me - I just hope things carry on like this
Food has gone well - not brilliant but well. And as an added bonus someone at work asked me if I had lost weight because I looked thinner
Go me!!!!!
I feel good with a capital F for fantastic. I still don't know about my car or the job - but I still have confidence things will work out Ok
Something is working for me - I just hope things carry on like this
Sunday 7 February 2010
A new approach
The reiki training went well - even though the day didnt go as I expected. I was taught about 3 reiki symbols whihc you use as a focus for what you want to do. two of the symbols used together can be used to treat addictions - and both the sources that provided this information mentioned over eating as an addiction.
So as part of my practice with the symbols I have drawn them on a piece of paper and written on it the words 'Sally free from overeating'
I will carry that paper around with me, maybe use it as a focus for my meditation sometimes. And we will see what happens. Doing it made me feel empowered - and lets be honest all too often we are controlled by food rather than the other way around,
I have eaten breakfast and lunch slowly and conciously, I have drunk water. (I bought a bottle to refresh me on my inital car buying expedition) And I have just clocked up 41 minutes on the wii fit with a short jog, advanced boxing and 30 minutes of free stepping. That is by far the longest workout I have done for ages!!
We watched a program on Sky this morning called fat families where an expert gave a family with VERY bad eating habits (chips with everything, dad eating 15 packets of crisps aday and mum never cooking from fresh ingredianets) and exercise habits (err what exercise they didnt do anyway) a scare by telling them all about their health problems and attempted to get them into new habits. But he made wholeslae changes of everything at the same time. Straight from burger and chips to healthy fish pie (home made by a mum who had never cooked) and surprise surprise the kids hated it - and even Mum wasn't too keen. Plus they got given a treadmill and a goal to clock up 350K between them when a box with goodies in would automatically unlock.
Now I have to admit both parents lost weight and looked a lot better for it. Da in particular was very motivated - and actually ended up injuring himself because he did to much jogging on the treadmill at the gym tat he joined. But the show only followed them for 9 weeks during which time he lost over 4 st and she lost just over 3. I woudl love to know what happened when the cameras stopped following them around.
Yes they had got into very bad habits. yes they needed to make changes to their lifestyle but I think they tried to make too many changes too quick. I think Francesca(http://smallchangesuk.blogspot.com/) has the right idea. Small changes one at a time is the best way forward.
So as part of my practice with the symbols I have drawn them on a piece of paper and written on it the words 'Sally free from overeating'
I will carry that paper around with me, maybe use it as a focus for my meditation sometimes. And we will see what happens. Doing it made me feel empowered - and lets be honest all too often we are controlled by food rather than the other way around,
I have eaten breakfast and lunch slowly and conciously, I have drunk water. (I bought a bottle to refresh me on my inital car buying expedition) And I have just clocked up 41 minutes on the wii fit with a short jog, advanced boxing and 30 minutes of free stepping. That is by far the longest workout I have done for ages!!
We watched a program on Sky this morning called fat families where an expert gave a family with VERY bad eating habits (chips with everything, dad eating 15 packets of crisps aday and mum never cooking from fresh ingredianets) and exercise habits (err what exercise they didnt do anyway) a scare by telling them all about their health problems and attempted to get them into new habits. But he made wholeslae changes of everything at the same time. Straight from burger and chips to healthy fish pie (home made by a mum who had never cooked) and surprise surprise the kids hated it - and even Mum wasn't too keen. Plus they got given a treadmill and a goal to clock up 350K between them when a box with goodies in would automatically unlock.
Now I have to admit both parents lost weight and looked a lot better for it. Da in particular was very motivated - and actually ended up injuring himself because he did to much jogging on the treadmill at the gym tat he joined. But the show only followed them for 9 weeks during which time he lost over 4 st and she lost just over 3. I woudl love to know what happened when the cameras stopped following them around.
Yes they had got into very bad habits. yes they needed to make changes to their lifestyle but I think they tried to make too many changes too quick. I think Francesca(http://smallchangesuk.blogspot.com/) has the right idea. Small changes one at a time is the best way forward.
Saturday 6 February 2010
Self image
There is no doubt in my mind that your self image can be the most positive and the most destructive thing. Yesterday my self image was poor because I saw myself as a failure for not getting to work. This morning I am bouyed up by the prospect of my reiki level 2 today. I am seeing myself working as a therapist -maybe starting off by offering reiki to the residents at Fosters. I am wondering if my new car needs to be able to accommodate a treatment table and if that should be one of the criteria to guide my choice. SAnd guess what. I have eaten breakfast slowly and thoughtfully and I have no doubts about turning the wii fit on
Having given myself some self healing last night I have also had a brilliant nights sleep.
So I am in an 'up boys and at 'em' mood and its all because I have a positive view of myself. The moral to this tale is to practise this positive view a lot more. In my opinion you can never conquer your body until you conquer your mind.
Having given myself some self healing last night I have also had a brilliant nights sleep.
So I am in an 'up boys and at 'em' mood and its all because I have a positive view of myself. The moral to this tale is to practise this positive view a lot more. In my opinion you can never conquer your body until you conquer your mind.
Friday 5 February 2010
Keeping your eyes on your goal
Thats what I am having to do at the moment. I need to keep my eyes fixed on my goals and remind myself that just because I have slowed down (or lets be honest ground almost to halt) due to feeling sh*tty, and the curved balls life is throwing at me, I am NOT a failure. OK my food management hasn't been brilliant over the last couple of days and I haven't moved as much as I normally would but I haven't sat and binged my way through a packet of wine gums, or biscuits. I have used the wii fit - (and have been using the wii fit for a year now -today was my 365 th day) and I have done my best to stick to the good food habits I am trying to acquire.
Not getting to work yesterday and today has really ht my self image. I feel such a wimp for finding the bus travel too much. The accident hasn't done a lot for my self image either because I can't work out what I did wrong. I feel like a bad driver. And I haven't done much meditation recently so my spiritual side is out of balance.
I need to prioritize things. First I need to find out if LV will let me have a courtesy car and if so when I will get it. That will determine how long I have to find another car. I can cope for a few more more days of bussing it to work - so I must have a car by Wednesday or Thursday of next week ideally or I wont be at work.
This is turning into a pivotal time for me. Over the next 2 months I will have a new car, and hopefully a new job. I will also be able to practise as a reiki therapist In a way it feel right that it is all happening close to the anniversary of Alan's death which is when my life changed so dramatically. there is a symmetry to all these that feels - right.
I have a plan - I feel better
Not getting to work yesterday and today has really ht my self image. I feel such a wimp for finding the bus travel too much. The accident hasn't done a lot for my self image either because I can't work out what I did wrong. I feel like a bad driver. And I haven't done much meditation recently so my spiritual side is out of balance.
I need to prioritize things. First I need to find out if LV will let me have a courtesy car and if so when I will get it. That will determine how long I have to find another car. I can cope for a few more more days of bussing it to work - so I must have a car by Wednesday or Thursday of next week ideally or I wont be at work.
This is turning into a pivotal time for me. Over the next 2 months I will have a new car, and hopefully a new job. I will also be able to practise as a reiki therapist In a way it feel right that it is all happening close to the anniversary of Alan's death which is when my life changed so dramatically. there is a symmetry to all these that feels - right.
I have a plan - I feel better
Thursday 4 February 2010
I am NOT superwoman
I need to repeat that to myself several times every hour at the moment. I was so determined to be a conscientious worker I gave myself 4 hours plus of bus travel a dayfor the last two days. Thats over 8 hours on busses and waiting for busses for 11 hours of work. Yesterday I spent 25 minutes waiting in the cold and rain for the last bus of my journey. Last night I felt as if I was coming down with a cold and this morning I have. Its not that bad - but I have decided struggling in on the bus today goes beyond conscientious to sheer stupidity. So I am not going in.
I always worry when I dont go in that I will appear unreliable and get a bad reputation. I always start from the assumption that I have to do extra special things to be appreciated. Thats my negative self image driving me. I need to believe the quality of my work speaks for me - and that no-one expects me to be superwoman.
Food has gone OK but formal exercise has been minimal. I am getting interesting messages form the 'yes/no' techniques. I got a clear no for caffeine this morning - and I can beleive my BP is up a bit as I am feelig so lousy. So caffeine would not have been a good idea.
Yoru body tells you all sorts of things about what it wants, you just have to find the right way to listen
I always worry when I dont go in that I will appear unreliable and get a bad reputation. I always start from the assumption that I have to do extra special things to be appreciated. Thats my negative self image driving me. I need to believe the quality of my work speaks for me - and that no-one expects me to be superwoman.
Food has gone OK but formal exercise has been minimal. I am getting interesting messages form the 'yes/no' techniques. I got a clear no for caffeine this morning - and I can beleive my BP is up a bit as I am feelig so lousy. So caffeine would not have been a good idea.
Yoru body tells you all sorts of things about what it wants, you just have to find the right way to listen
Wednesday 3 February 2010
Discilpline
The only reason I am blogging is so I can say I am still keeping to all the things I do to help keep myself on track. I feel so pushed for time at the moment. Without a car I face 4 hours of travel each day to work for 5 and a half hours . I feel so tired today knowing I have to face the same again today.
So I have used the wii fit today - for 5 minutes. But I haven't missed a day for over 10 weeks and I want to see if I can get to 90 days without a break.
Food yesterday went OK ish - but crackers and chocolate (not together!) made an appearance when I was tired last night.
The new bed arrived yesterday - and I can say with confidence - my back loves the new mattress.
Must go and get my lunch and myself ready to leave in the next hour - and I have to deal with some laundry as well.
So I have used the wii fit today - for 5 minutes. But I haven't missed a day for over 10 weeks and I want to see if I can get to 90 days without a break.
Food yesterday went OK ish - but crackers and chocolate (not together!) made an appearance when I was tired last night.
The new bed arrived yesterday - and I can say with confidence - my back loves the new mattress.
Must go and get my lunch and myself ready to leave in the next hour - and I have to deal with some laundry as well.
Tuesday 2 February 2010
Time management revisited
It is ridicously early o'clock - but I couldn't sleep so I'm up. I am so woried about how the busses will work for me today. I am frightened of missing connections or getting lost. It is totally ridiculous. Imagination is a powerful tool - but sometimes it gets out of hand. I will be better once I have actually got underway. But in the meantime I have left myself time to check the timetables AGAIN before I go.
On the plus side I wasn't going to sleep if I stayed in bed so at least I am making good use of the time.
I have done my own personal 15 minute routine this morning. Yoga and muscle exercises. My right leg is very weak still.
Food yesterday was good. I didn't have ANY biscuits or chocolates - because I didnt want them. The yes/no technique is helping me make my choices. It will be interesting to see how rgis affects me. I am wondering if mkaing bad meal food choices increaases the chances of me snacking when I am not really hungry. Watch this space. I will track it.
On the plus side I wasn't going to sleep if I stayed in bed so at least I am making good use of the time.
I have done my own personal 15 minute routine this morning. Yoga and muscle exercises. My right leg is very weak still.
Food yesterday was good. I didn't have ANY biscuits or chocolates - because I didnt want them. The yes/no technique is helping me make my choices. It will be interesting to see how rgis affects me. I am wondering if mkaing bad meal food choices increaases the chances of me snacking when I am not really hungry. Watch this space. I will track it.
Monday 1 February 2010
New day new week new month ....new problem
Well wat would life be without a problem. I don't get a courtesy car so I have to workout how I am going to manage with public transport until normal service is resumed. It will be interesting and challenging to say the least.
Anyway I am not at work today - but will go tomorrow - on the bus. I can either get three buses, or take a slightly longer walk and only have 2 busses. I want to do the slightly longer walk and use 2 - but not sure if my back and stamina will be up to that. But we will see
I have used the wii fit this morning. Just over 20 minutes. I did a combination of yoga and muscle exercises that I set up weeks ago but never used. I hope to do some more later and hit both my targets.
I used the 'yes/no' technique to help chose breakfast. Today cereal and bread seem to be IN. I ate slowly - but not as consciously as I should have done - but I did leave some.
Despite all the positive things I can identify I do feel down this morning. I am cold, fed up that I didn't take the courtesy car option on my insurance, fed up that I had the accident in the first place, and full of negative feelings about myself.
So I ma going to use this unexpected , and rather unwanted, day off to pamper myself a little. A bath will warm me up, relax my muscles and help me relax. Can only be a good thing. Then I may test out the walk to the bus for tomorrow!!
The lack of car could be really good for my health
Anyway I am not at work today - but will go tomorrow - on the bus. I can either get three buses, or take a slightly longer walk and only have 2 busses. I want to do the slightly longer walk and use 2 - but not sure if my back and stamina will be up to that. But we will see
I have used the wii fit this morning. Just over 20 minutes. I did a combination of yoga and muscle exercises that I set up weeks ago but never used. I hope to do some more later and hit both my targets.
I used the 'yes/no' technique to help chose breakfast. Today cereal and bread seem to be IN. I ate slowly - but not as consciously as I should have done - but I did leave some.
Despite all the positive things I can identify I do feel down this morning. I am cold, fed up that I didn't take the courtesy car option on my insurance, fed up that I had the accident in the first place, and full of negative feelings about myself.
So I ma going to use this unexpected , and rather unwanted, day off to pamper myself a little. A bath will warm me up, relax my muscles and help me relax. Can only be a good thing. Then I may test out the walk to the bus for tomorrow!!
The lack of car could be really good for my health
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