Good Friday

With my christian upbringing Good Friday is a day of memories and reflection. I remember going out to the bakers early in the morning to get the hot cross buns straight from the oven. It was a holiday - a solemn day when nobody (except the baker?) worked. No shops (except the bakers for a short time) would be open. But even in my childhood days I don't remember any great religious significance to the day. Was that just because when I was young we were not a religious family? My memories come from a time when my sister and I went to the local baptist sunday school simply because we could get there without crossing any roads. My parents were not religious then. But even then Easter was not the same sort of festival as Christmas - and as I have grown up the two have grown even further apart. But the message of re-birth still permeates the secular celebrations of Easter with the emphasis on Easter Eggs. I guess thats because the christians slotted their celebrations alongside the pagan one just as they did with Christmas! Why am I thinking about my spiritual roots? I am not sure its just seems apt. Its partly prompted by the fact that I have a hypnotherapy patient coming today. Julie is bringer her daughter over to see if I can help her. Do I feel I am betraying my heritage by working on the most solemn day in the christian year? Do I feel guilty that I have moved so far from my roots? Have I moved that far from my roots? I have already said I don't have significant memories of events on this dat from childhood. In fact I will be helping someone who I know desperately needs to find some re-birth from her problems. I guess with my new spiritual outlook from the past few years, I feel frustrated by the lack of spirituality in the world. I want to help people re-connect with their spiritual core - that many don;t even realise they have. I seem to be back to teaching again. Circle went well - we did pendulum work. But Marie said she no longer wishes to delve into her past, and was clearly disappointed that I wasn't brimming over with enthusiasm for The Secret. I have to accept that she will find her own path or find her path blocked to what she wants to achieve. I need to fins out what Marie has to teach ME. Food went well yesterday. And it is no coincidence that yesterday at the salon was a positive one. And I took chances offered to give distance reiki - once I was sure the people I was sending to were aware healing had been requested. Paula wasn't at the salon so I didn't give a hands on treatment. I spent over an hour walking delivering leaflets, I only ate half my lunch, I drank water and although I did have 2 biscuits I ONLY had 2 biscuits. Today feel like my tabula rase is not only for today but for a few months. Thats the rebirth aspect coming in . Psychologically it is a strong imperative. So for today I want a relaxing day. I want a good day with food. I want the confidence I will find the right words for my hypnotherapy. For the next few months I want some reiki clients as a result of the advertising I have done through the salon - and that is now a real possibility. I want Tony to have enough clients either face-to-face or via **^ for him to know he is doing well. And I want to drop a dress size so my uniforms at the hospice and the hospital become loose.