Blogging as meditation

Meditation and mindfulness are the two new buzz words in the area of mental health. Although if you go back to the beginning of this blog it was to help me lose weight, mental health has always been a huge priority for me. I firmly believe good physical health and good mental health are interdependent. I am very much the whole mind body spirit thing.

Thats one reason I think why qigong has gripped me so much is because it is a kind of moving meditation. I can be very mindful when I am doing qigong.

But sometimes sitting still is good....and in the past I have found that blogging about something can help me sort my thoughts out. Sometimes its almost a kind of automatic writing.

I am very hard on myself at times. I think I should meditate and be mindful and be more spiritual than I am. I am a reiki practitioner and we are meant to be spiritual. I recently took someone though her reiki level one...and she was very unhappy that it wasn't more spiritual. I got the impression she wanted a big spiritual break though, some answers to life's great questions....the truth is answers don't come in in a flash very often. They come from discipline and regular practice.

One of my friends posted in a face book group that she had been told to tell us to talk to our guides today....about anything. Not to worry if we can't hear them, they can hear us. Now this is something I have a problem with. I am not sure about this whole 'guide' thing and suspect I just make things up ........but then I don;t expect to hear things. And that of course could well be the problem. We limit our achievements by our expectations.

Blogging like this is a way of me 'talking' to guides/angels/god/the universe/.....take your pick on who could be the recipient. And I know I have experienced moments when my thoughts have gone in unexpected direction while blogging......and that could be an answer by who or what ever 'listens.

I have been reading a book recommended from a very unexpected source about a players in a virtual reality game. Their avatars can meditate and pray. When they meditate it is possible for those outside the game to talk to them (even though this shouldn't happen) When they prey only the mainframe computer that controls the game talk to them.
For a sci fi book it contains a lot about spirituality. And it actually mentions reiki....



And I have just remembered that reading has also been recommended as a form of meditation.

Maybe I am not as bad at being spiritual as I though...

So how is my design for life going?

Well I still have a weight problem but whatever other medical problems I have (and I have a few) I am not diabetic, not hypertensive, and don;t need to take the normal cocktail of drugs for prevention of cardiovascular events that a lot of women my age need to take.

My holistic skills are increasing. I am now qualified in Indian head massage, use of Kats Eye blends of aromatherapy oils, and to teach a form of Tai chi called Shibashi qigong

I have left my room at the salon and now have access on an as needed basis to two wonderful purpose built consulting rooms in Edgbaston and Bromsgrove

I now have regular locum work at two Spire Private hospitals and may have a work at a third soon.


And I am supposed to be retired...................

I do have a few new health problems. I have succumbed to the fashionable disease of Vitamin D deficiency, and just been diagnosed with late onset asthma. And today I have been told I have early signs of cataracts, and hearing problems that may require me to have hearing aids.

But I feel so lucky I have easily treated problems and that there is nothing that will stop me doing what I love.

We are in the middle of the general election campaign and Steve is a candidate in our constituency and I feel so proud of him I could almost burst.

In other words, life is good, and I intend for it to get better and thats the best design you can possibly have

I'm back.............

Wow.....what a long gap First of al why have I re-started this blog? well I know I need the discipline of blogging. It will help me. Plus I wanted to remind myself what I was doing last time I made an entry.

It may be many months ago...but I remember that network meeting I mentioned in my last entry. I didn't get the cancellation fee from the client. I didn't get into networking...and I am now in a very different place to where I was all those months ago. But thats a story for tomorrow.....its too late tonight

My first networking meeting

I went to my first networking meeting yesterday. It wasn't very well organised - but I think I caught them on a bad day. However I got a chance to mae my pitch and meet one or two people who may be able me build up Krystal Wolf

Sadly the hypnotherapy customer booked for yesterday cancelled but is intending to send me a small cancellation fee. Well we'll see if it arrives or not.

So things a bit mixed really. Sadly Tony has had a couple dry spells logged on - but when I logged on yesterday simply because I was sorting things out in the kitchen (and I can set up and reach the laptop quickly if a call comes in) I did actually get some calls.I am betting when we get our pay tho Tony will have earned more than me. We shall see.

Health wise I am back in the exercise routine having dropped out of it. And not only I am back in I am back doing my 10-10-10 routine which includes 10 minutes of jogging.

And in other areas - well I seem to be getting back to blogging which I guess means I am back to designing my life again. I am doing more regular self healing and meditation too

Designing my life?

Oh dear today is the 38th of October - and my last post here was 10th July. What happened? Well partly I was experimenting with Wordpress (not a success) Partly I was focussing on other blogs with limited success. But mainly I have been busy. So what has happened?

Well really quite alot

Krystal Wolf now has new premises at 21 Church Road Northfield B31 2JZ. We have use of a wholeroom on Fridays. We also hold circle their on Thursday evenings and I am tenetaviley dipping a toe in the water of running workshops and multo person reiki training sessions on a Saturday. The room is suitbale for reiki hypnotherapy and readings, and we have BITH had clients their. Tony's have only been walk ins but I have had people book. Also I now have 2 reiki clients up at Paula Jaynes PLUS I am now on the at home team of Psychic Today AND both Moonstone (me) and Fenris (Tony) have apperaed live on the TV . They got us into the studio on Saturday.

So what has prompted this return to my blog today? Well beleive it or not its the change in the clocks. I decided to do something constructive with the extra hour caused by the chnage back to GMT. So I have self healed and to pass the time while I wait for a call (I am logged on) I deciuded to get back to blogging too. Self heajing and meditation are two things I need to do on a regular basis - and that is one thing I haven't made much progress with cince July. 'Just do it' has been forgotten - but is now remembered. Espercially in view of the fact that last Thursday at circle 'just doing it' enabled me to give three names that Freda ( one of our new members - a lovely lady with years of mediumship experience) 3 names she could take. Much to my HUGE surprise I should add.

I have a half day pharmacy worked booked on a Saturday after Xmas - although I am expecting a few days in November. So my focus really IS shifting towards my other work....which is great.

Teaching reiki

Things have been up and down over the past few days. Some good things - like people ringing me out of the blue to ask if I TEACH reiki, or if I would be interested in an advertisement in a magazine - guaranteed I will be the only therapist form this area with an advert. But confusingly I am picking up negative vibes about my teacher attunement from my teacher. I suspect she doesn't think I am ready.... and maybe I am not despite the universes signals to me that this is what I should be doing.

But on the whole Krystal Wolf seems to be heading in the right direction.

But I have realised I still have a LOT of work to do on certain things.

I am wondering if some of my negativity is due to me not meditating as regularly as I want to. Well the solution to that is in my hands, I just have to DO it don't I.

"Just do it' is a good mantra. I adopted it for my exercise regiment when I realised how watching the step counter and timer held me back and limited what I did. It is also very similar to a phrase my reiki teacher used to me ' Don't over think things'

My mind gets in the way of my intuition - and I realise I have to give my intuition a freer reign if I am to succeed.

I have been doing well with exercise over the past couple of days tho. Jogging a lot more than I have been used to.

So on the whole more positives than negatives. Can I say I have been a 2%er tho. Well I do always recognise I am in charge of how I feel - I just haven't been very good at doing it lately.

Moving on

I am going for my master teacher attunement. Today has been great. I am changing my day at the hospice so I should get more patients. I have had some fabulous feedback from Rachel about her hypnotherapy - and her husband is so impressed he is considering having some. AND they may want me to work with their son David (middle child of 5) on anger management.

A couple of our friends may want to try hypnotherapy too. I've said I won't charge them but if they are pleased can they put a testimonial on the site.

I have someone who may be interested in paying me for some distance reiki.

Now all I need is a chance to try out for the psychic channel. !!!!!!!

Suddenly its all happening............

Silence is Golden............

Ummmm........ its been some time since I posted. I apologise for the silence This is partly because having gone to a seminar about using FB and twitter to market small businesses I have been working on our page and on twitter in a different way - and it takes more times. PLus the people at the seminar suggested a different blog site - which I have tried but its a bit 'blah' at the moment.

So how am I doing? Well I went to the GP about my thyrsoxine levels and ended up having the full works done including in weight and blood pressure. I haven't had a call to say they want to change or add any medication so I presume the results were OK........ which is good.

The reiki and hypnotherapy business is still slow ....but the pharmacy buisness has picked up. I have been at ROH today and am back there on Friday. The money will be welcome.

Talking of money we have had one HUGE success. STEVE HAS A PAID JOB. The form that gave him the internship have found the money for a 3 month contract - whihc is all goes well and he does ok will be extended........ AND He has let the second room in his house so from having no money he is suddenly ,,,,,well not swimming in it but has more than enough for his needs.

The next outing for Krystal Wolf Holistic Care is the psychic fayre at Stratford on July 21st. I am really looking forward to that.

But I am trying a new tack to get some money. I have applied to join Psychic Today as on of their option 0 psychics........... watch this space.......

Psychic Fair

We went to a psychic fair yesterday. Sadly it wasn't well signposted, and wasn't easy to find so footfall was very disappointing. Tony did one reading but I did 3. I was offering crystal readings which no-one else is offering. I had a real wow moment with one reading which involved mediumship. I got the relationship close (I said grandfather and it was great uncle) but I got the name. The look on their faces was amazing.

I am starting to have more confidence in my abilities - and that is brilliant. I have been actively trying to think much more positively - although it has been difficult.

Getting to the fair was NOT brilliant - and I was anything but calm. I had taken down the phone number of the organiser wrong so it got very fraught when the sat nav postcodes were unhelpful and we couldn't find the place.I still need to work on staying calm when things go wrong.

Steve has offerred to help us with marketing tips and with the website. He have me some advice about ways to increase the visibility of the site - which I have taken action on.

So here I sit at midday still in my dressing gown because I have been busy doing marketing stuff on the internet.

I am also feeling VERY pleased because Rachel has put an amazing testimonial on our facebook page Krystal Wolf Holistic Care I feel so pleased that she has benefitted from what I did.

On the down side - food and exercise have been horrifically out of balance. I have been tired with all the driving I have done ( Solihull,Nuneaton, Little Aston, Alcester and Solihull) all on consecutive days. Things will be calmer this week so I should start getting re-balanced soon.

Today I AM going to meditate, and I AM going to do some self healing. I have not done either for myself for way too long.

An utterly brilliant day

Well........yesterday was all sorts of amazing. It started when I struggled to post something suitable in IYSAH. I put something together, then went on the daily tarot pick for Krystal Wolf Holistic Care group. I got The Tower and I thought. Wow thats SO relevant to what I posted in IYSAH that I shared it with the group. Then I went on to do a pick for our new page - and again got a card that was so apt I felt it was speaking to me personally.

I headed up to the salon in a good frame of mind, and I did actually do one 10 minute treatment. I agreed with Paula that we would offer selected perm/colour customers a FREE 10 minute session. Well a suitable lady came in and accepted the offer. And she was interested enough to ask some questions as I was leaving.

The I went to Nuneaton to a meeting Clare had suggested I join. I don't know what I was expecting - but I was pleasantly surprised to discover it was very spiritual. I discovered why I felt I had to drive 37 miles to meet strangers when I discovered how alike I am to debbie - who runs the group, and hw much our similar outlooks meant to Clare who got quite emotional during the meeting. I ended up sitting comforting Clare, as Debbie spoke supported by myself and the other members of the group. I really hope I get a chance to go back there and meet Debbie again. But amazingly 'The Tower' got mentioned by one of the other members of the group - which had me very much in a wow mode.

When I got home I found Tony in very upbeat mood. He had answered an sos from Psychic Today and logged on in the afternoon. He had a few calls and spoke live to the studio.

The we had circle. For the first time Sallie, Amber (who changed her mind about coming at the last minute) and Marie were all there. We did a chakra meditation, during which I could feel the room crackling with energy) We discussed crystals (got some strange ideas) did soe psychometry with one very strange result in what Marie took as her object and the information Tony got, then we did some cards and The Tower came out AGAIN. Then at one pointAmber was mesmerised by the cystal ball on the table and said she could see what looked like a black and white photo of a dark haired man. Something made me think about the photo of Davis (Alan's brother) and when I showed Amber the photo her face was a picture.

Amber is a rare talent and I feel truly humbled that we are being given the chance to guide her development. And I have realised to be a teacher/enabler of of others is a truly amazing calling.

Then after circle Tony had a scheduled session on the webcam for 886 - and had at least 2 calls to my knowledge.

I could not sleep last night. I was so hyped up with the all the energy from circle and the amazing synchronicities in the day.

Today I am tired but still energised. I realise I forgot to take my thyroxine this morning - but I am wondering if my levels are a bit on the high side . Maybe my sleeplessness has a mundane cause as well. Maybe I forgot because I know my levels are high? I need to book an appointment with the doctor.

But that is for next week. For now all I can say is ....WOW

Day 10

I don't where the time has gone. Somehow I have been too busy to post - and I am aware of an element of frustration in certain areas. I am meeting Clare today and I know that will focus me mind wonderfully.

Living brilliantly

Well today is day 5 and I don't think i have slipped too badly.

I resolved my dilemma with the lady I mentioned in the previous post. After talking to her CPN I know more about her and her problems, AND that she is now back on medication. This lady originally wanted aromatherapy and I did find myself discussing with Jean how that would be a safer option. At the same time I also found myself thinking -' and that means someone else will deal with her' This was a FAR from brilliant response. So having spoken to the CPN we agreed that hypnotherapy wasn't suitable - especially as the problem she wanted me to deal with is part of her psychosis. However it was agreed reiki would be relaxing and safe. So next week I am giving her reiki.

Its amazing how much you become aware of when you consciously think 'is this being brilliant' I have deleted any number of posts intend for Locumvoice.

And almost as if I am being rewarded, I have a new reiki patient BOOKED, and another one in the offing. I am also giving the salon owner another HOME treatment on Tuesday. PLus I am helping her set up a website for the salon.
Plus I spotted on FB that Colin Fry is planning a large psychic weekend in the midlands next March. Seeing someone had asked 'do you need any crystal sellers' I popped up with 'Do you need any readers' and got told 'yes' so we may be part of a BIG psychic fair next year.

Tony had an amazing night last night. 7 calls in three and half hours - and one of them was over 30 minutes long. So HE is on a roll too.

Its amazing how this positivity just becomes infectious.

But I do wonder if I am challenging myself enough . I wonder if I have correctly identified what makes me 'brilliant' It is almost too easy.

I haven't had any meltdowns when I felt as if the world was against me.
I haven't dodged or delayed tasks I was worried about
I have done some work on my portfolio.

The one downside is TC our 17 year old cat. He has a sore on his leg that won't heal and keeps bleeding. I am wondering if we need to take action. The problem is their is no brilliant response to this - just pain whether we wait and see or decide that 17 years is a good life for a cat. Am I being un- brilliant in not being more decisive? No because it isn't just my decision to take. I made it clear to Tony what my concerns were. I need to talk to Steve as TC is technically his cat. But I am not anxious to tackle the issue with him I admit

A dilemma

I have a problem today at the hospice. Last week a lady was referred to me who has a history of psychosis and schizophrenia.I went to see her but felt I needed some input from her psychiatric team before I could actually treat her as she really wants hypnotherapy. She was supposed to give my number to her CPN. I have heard nothing. If the CPN hasn't contacted the hospice either, I have to find the brilliant response to this. Watch this space...........

If hypnotherapy is out, I have to decide whether reiki with the intention of 'the healing she needs' will be OK - as I am not sure if what she WANTS is actually safe for her

Day 1 of living at my brilliant best

I have tried to say nice things to people today to inspire them to be good. It felt good to say things via FB to people who would NOT expect me to say something like that. I hoped that by saying things like that they would raise their game a notch.

I aslo tried to 'inspire' someone who is deliberately combative on Locum Vice. I stayed calm and thought about the words of my post VERY carefully.

caring, compassion and listening haven't really been in the frame,

Thats what I have to improve me. So what have I done to promote Krystal Wolf ? Well I have struggled with technology today and got it set up so I can make a post on Krystal Wolf Holistic Care page - and it gets tweeted. AND when I tweet the posts appear on Krystal Wolf account AND Krystal Wolf Holistic Care page. And all without the aid of a teenager. We also went out and did what is our last leaflet drop! The remaining leaflets about the reiki at the salon can be issued via the salon or at psychic fairs (of which we have two coming up)

The walking to drop the leaflets took the place of the planned swimming/gym visit. MUCH more productive

ANd I have also found a local business networking group so all being well I will be going to a meeting on Friday morning at Tamworth. Not quite as local as I would LIKE - but its the only one I can find on a day when I can go. All the others are on Wednesdays when I am at the hospice.

Now for a drum roll................ are you ready????? I MEDITATED THIS MORNING. Not the most brilliant meditation I have ever done but I did it.

At the moment I feel I am going to BREEZE through the 14 days ............... but I may be wrong.

My 6 pack

Having read both The art of being Brilliant' and now 'Being Brilliant' I have decided I needed to give myself a refresher course in the things I think I know so well thanks to Paul McKenna. 'Change your life in Seven Days' will always remain the most influential book for me. Without the hypnotherapy CD I don;t think i would have made anything like the progress I did. But the Andy's have a fresh approach that is making me take a second look at myself. In particular I like the concept of the '6 pack' of qualities' that define you at your best. However I have no doubt it will be tough to define them - and then live up to them for 14 consecutive days.

And as I think about what I feel defines me I realise I am not the same person I was post September 2007 when I was 'McKenna'd' I have moved on - so maybe this is the perfect time for me revisit these ideas....especially as I am now deliberately cutting back on my pharmacy work - to pursue my dream. But can I turn that dream into a HUGG? Maybe I haven't made much progress because I haven't been thinking big enough!


OK so what 6 qualities do I feel define me at my most brilliant best?

My first choice surprises me - but after a day spent helping friend of mine she used the same word a number of times 'inspiring' And I have realised inspiring people is exactly what I want to do

Second has got to be 'caring'

Third is 'calm' I don;t do anything well when I am not calm. And as a therapist I need to be calm and soothing to best help my clients.

Gosh this is harder than I thought. Last night I was creating a list in my head and I had 6- but they were all predictable based on my post McKenna self.

Fourth is 'generous' generous with my time and my money

Fifth is 'compassionate'

Sixth is 'Intuitive' I really do work best when my intuition and empathy are at full volume. But taking that down to a more mundane level describing myself as a good listener probably describes it well enough. I need to listen AND hear well .

How do these relate to my reiki principles? Well not worrying and not getting angry ensure I am calm. Having respect for others ensures I listen well to them. Honesty and hard work? I am honest but I don;t think honesty defines me at my best. It is just ingrained into me. And being compassionate obviously fits.

So these qualities do not conflict with my reiki principles - which I didn't think they would.Maybe this shows how deeply the reiki principles have become ingrained?

OK so now I just need to live by those qualities for 14 consecutive days. Watch this space

I made a breakthrough of a sort with food today. I went out for lunch with my friend - who has a much bigger weight problem than me. We were discussing various approaches to slimming including the McKenna approach. And somehow talking about them I managed to put it into action. I couldn't finish my baked potato!! And something I don't know what got me to eat raw tomato - something I haven't done voluntarily since I was a child.

I haven't done any significant exercise for a few days - but with a busted wii fit board the only wii fit exercise I could do is jogging - and in this heat that is NOT an option. I will go swimming or the gym tomorrow.

So what have I done today that relates directly to Krystal Wolf? Well I created a Facebook page for us - and having got 30 likes we then rolled a dice and gave that person a free reading. i did that reading today. I have also done some posts ON that page - and on a new page Paula has created for the salon. And she was kind enough to endorse my reiki .

One thing I am STILl not doing is regular meditation - and I am not even doing my reiki principles . I really MUST make progress on that.

So to finish for the next 14 days I need to be an inspiring caring calm generous compassionate listener...phew.

HUGG's

I intend to set myself a Huge Unbelievably Great Goal. Watch this space

I have just read an amzing book called 'The art of Being Brilliant' If you want a simple, funny and understandable self improvment book - ths is it. Check out their website 'The art of brilliance

Getting used to my new life

I gave up my three days a week at the orthopaedic hospital a couple of weeks ago. The first week I had no pharmacy work I spent the first two days recovering from Beer and Pretzels. Driving 140 miles in a weekend is tiring. So today is actually the first day I have had with no specific work at all and no appointments of any sort. The world is my oyster - and I am NOT going to waste it.

There is work to do on my portfolio.
I need to study crystals because we have agreed I will talk about crystals at next weeks circle.
The back lawn needs mowing
There is housework to be done
I still have 500 leaflets to deliver.
I would LIKE to go swimming on use the gym today.

One of my big concerns is that now I am not working at the hospital as regularly I am not going to get as much exercise and I will put weight on. I am determined NOT to do that. But I need a new strategy slimming. Sadly my guru Paul McKenna's system doesn't seem to work with me . OR is it because I am not actually sticking to his system? Now I am home more I have a chance to actually put his rules into action?

Now that is something to meditate about..... and meditation is something else I need to put firmly on my agenda.If I am to have the life I want, I need to grow spiritually as well as shrink physically. That has given me the most bizarre image in my head!!

I find I am looking forward with pleasant anticipation to all the tasks on my to do list even the mundane ones because my vision for my future life includes a much more organised house.

And for the first time it is starting to sink in that I have time to really achieve all these things.

So where does weight loss fit into my plans?

WEight loss fits in in two ways.

1) I want to get to grips with my wn weight issues.

2) I want to help people who have weight issues. As a start I run a Face book slimming support group called. Imagine yourself slimmer and healthier

Like some of our other ventures this brings in small amounts of money . the group itself is free, but I have sold a few personalised hypnotherapy CD's for 5.00 each.

I give them NLP hints and tips for how to change how they feel and act, try to encourage them to adopt a sensible approach to their problems- making lifestyle changes rather than meal replacements, or counting calories. And I encourage them NOT to weigh in every week.

I also promote the idea that being thin is NOT the same as being healthy.


I have had good feedback from those who have bought the CD's off me. One of my plans is to become more professional in my CD production and sell them through KrystalWolf Holistic Care

What life am I trying to build?

As I sit here today I am designing my future life. My thoughts and actions today will build my future. So I need to be clear about what I want in my life.

The first thing I want to talk about is Krystal Wolf Holistic Care
Krystal Wolf is me and Tony, doing our best to help people when they are in trouble, helping people realise their full potential. But we are not marketing it very well yet. But today I was out pushing leaflets about my reiki and our business card through letterboxes when one woman ran out of her house waving them at me saying 'Is this you" Coincidentally she had been wondering if there was a medium.reader in the area. We agreed there was no such thing as co-incidnece.

At the moment I see the readings as being more Tony's side, while I do reiki and hypnotherapy. I am starting slowly to get clients for hypnotherapy but the reiki is slow going. I work out of a local salon on Thursdays and so far my only client is the salon owner - who has become a real fan of reiki.

I do do readings as well - and I know I am good at them,. So I have taken a deep breath and applied to Psychic Today. Tony works for them a reader already.

I have never seen myself as a reader - but I am beginning to feel that is my best way to help people.

Another thing Krystal Wolf do is spiritual development and Thursday evenings we run a small development circle. This is a new venture for us.

At times I get depressed that things are moving so slowly but we are taking some money - in 5 and 10 pound amounts. Things are moving int he right direction and I am going to kepe on pushing it

Krystal Wolf is a huge part of the future I am trying to build