I overdid it yesterday. Rushing around to get skirting board,then painting the ceiling at Steve's with a long handled roller was a bit too much for me. I couldnt be bothered to cook last night so we had pizza delivered .
I feel very sluggish this morning and very creaky. Yesterday I didnt do a work out, didnt have a particularly healthy diet, didnt eat the pizza as slowly as I should.
But this morning I have drunk a lot but not felt like eating - so I havent had breakfast yet. I will switxh on the Wiiifit and do a work out. If I do anything at Steve's today it will be much easier and less physical strenuous than yesterday.
This has been a real reminder that physically there are real limits gt what and how much I can do. It is no accident that my DS mental age is younger than my Wiifit body age, Thats why I want to work in a physiocally easy but mentally challenging environment.
Today I need to do some serious work. I must go over the pandemic flu stuff from the CPPE. I may not have work booked at the moment - but if the pandemic is confirmed I suspect hopsitals will be given money similar to the 'winter pressures' money they get every winter to cope with the fcat the increase in illness.. And pharmacists would be key people they would want to make sure they have around. And since I know Selly oaks admission ward well, I would be very useful to them. So I need to be sure my knowledge is up to date in case they call.
Thursday, 30 April 2009
Wednesday, 29 April 2009
Somoen is trying to tell me something
The healthy reflection from Sparkpeople today is almost pure McKenna. It is the central core of CYLI7D. Coming so soon after my decision to see if I can train my natural empathy up more it really does feel as if I am being told 'Yes go for it'
Feeling that I am on the right track is a huge boost.
'Limitations can either define us or give us a challenge to outwit. When you look at your abilities, do you see boundaries and limits, or do you see possibilities and potential? Obsessing about weaknesses can blind us to the untapped abilities we already have. You have talent. Everyone does. The secret to success is to find that talent, develop it and push it as far as you can. Grandma Moses might have been a lousy bowler, Einstein probably couldn't sing a lick, Michelangelo could've been unable to speak well in public. So what? They knew what they were good at and rode that pony. Your talent might be right in front of you: where do you get the most compliments? What seems to come easily to you? What do people ask your advice for? Live there. Don't let the rest get in the way. '
Feeling that I am on the right track is a huge boost.
'Limitations can either define us or give us a challenge to outwit. When you look at your abilities, do you see boundaries and limits, or do you see possibilities and potential? Obsessing about weaknesses can blind us to the untapped abilities we already have. You have talent. Everyone does. The secret to success is to find that talent, develop it and push it as far as you can. Grandma Moses might have been a lousy bowler, Einstein probably couldn't sing a lick, Michelangelo could've been unable to speak well in public. So what? They knew what they were good at and rode that pony. Your talent might be right in front of you: where do you get the most compliments? What seems to come easily to you? What do people ask your advice for? Live there. Don't let the rest get in the way. '
Tuesday, 28 April 2009
Oh yes I am trying .......and how!
I hope it isn't possible to overdose on trances - because I may be at risk if it is. Last night I listened to the weight loss CD and this morning I listened to 'Change your life in 7 days'. I feel energised and very positive. I know this is mainly due to my acticity yesterday when I made a plan - and did everything that needed doing - plus a bit more.
I haven't exercised yet this morning but that will be next move after breakfast. I am eating my breakfast slowly and I strongly suspect I wont be able to finish it.
I did much better with food yesterday. I did have some biscuits - but was also able to refuse them when I was offered some. I didn't snack during the game last night. I have also realised that I HAVE LOST NEARLY HALF A STONE. 12 weeka ago when I got the Wiifit I would have been delighted to realise I would have lost so much weight in such a relatively short time - and with so little pain in the food department.
The facts in front of me are the same as yesterday. What has changed is my perspective on them. And that is what all Pauls programmes are about - changing your perspective to give yourself a different view of whatever you are trying to address whether it is weight loss, insomnia, smoking, depression or seemingly intractable personal issues. I think the story that best typifies his approach is of the man who ate an airoplane. It took him a long long time and he did it one small piece at a time - but he did it. Paul helps me break down huge unmanageable issues to little manageable tasks. So I dont sit here thinking 'help I cant possibly lose 4 stone - and I really should be trying to lose 6 stone' I sit hear dealing with THIS meal and planning my next excercise session, and my work for today. And hey in 6 weels or 12 weeks time I may suddenly realise I have lost ANOTHER half a stone.
I think why Paul's method works for me is that it speaks to something fundamental in my personaility. The side of me that refuses to write of homeopathy as bunkum despite the scorn of some of my fellow professionals. The side of me that wants to explore the paranormal and see if I have any psychic ability. I would love to see if someone who was totally materialistic could use Paul's programmes. I susoect not. I know someone who bought 'I can make you thin' but wrotw it off becasue she 'fell asleep' listening to the CD and decided it couldnt possibly work. She was a no-nonsense utterly practical type of person. Me - I am a dreamer and always have been.
Anyway as therapeutic and enjoyable as this writing is, it is time to staop thinking and start doing.
And for the record - my breakfast is unfinished.
I haven't exercised yet this morning but that will be next move after breakfast. I am eating my breakfast slowly and I strongly suspect I wont be able to finish it.
I did much better with food yesterday. I did have some biscuits - but was also able to refuse them when I was offered some. I didn't snack during the game last night. I have also realised that I HAVE LOST NEARLY HALF A STONE. 12 weeka ago when I got the Wiifit I would have been delighted to realise I would have lost so much weight in such a relatively short time - and with so little pain in the food department.
The facts in front of me are the same as yesterday. What has changed is my perspective on them. And that is what all Pauls programmes are about - changing your perspective to give yourself a different view of whatever you are trying to address whether it is weight loss, insomnia, smoking, depression or seemingly intractable personal issues. I think the story that best typifies his approach is of the man who ate an airoplane. It took him a long long time and he did it one small piece at a time - but he did it. Paul helps me break down huge unmanageable issues to little manageable tasks. So I dont sit here thinking 'help I cant possibly lose 4 stone - and I really should be trying to lose 6 stone' I sit hear dealing with THIS meal and planning my next excercise session, and my work for today. And hey in 6 weels or 12 weeks time I may suddenly realise I have lost ANOTHER half a stone.
I think why Paul's method works for me is that it speaks to something fundamental in my personaility. The side of me that refuses to write of homeopathy as bunkum despite the scorn of some of my fellow professionals. The side of me that wants to explore the paranormal and see if I have any psychic ability. I would love to see if someone who was totally materialistic could use Paul's programmes. I susoect not. I know someone who bought 'I can make you thin' but wrotw it off becasue she 'fell asleep' listening to the CD and decided it couldnt possibly work. She was a no-nonsense utterly practical type of person. Me - I am a dreamer and always have been.
Anyway as therapeutic and enjoyable as this writing is, it is time to staop thinking and start doing.
And for the record - my breakfast is unfinished.
Monday, 27 April 2009
At least I'm trying
Well last night for the first time in weeks I listened to Paul's weight loss tape. Anf this morning I plucked up my courage to do the body test. I really cocked up the athletic ability test so I'm ignoring my new Wiifit age of 66. But my weight is 1 lb down. 1lb in a month isnt brilliant - but at least its moving in the right direction. With the way I havent been following Paul's rules I guess that is some sort of triumph. How much would I have lost if I hadnt given into the urge to eat biscuits?
OK so I can now start again How many times have I tried to restart? I am beggining to feel like a broken record. I need to find a way to break the viscious circle I seem to be in.
One of the things the medium said to me was that I have a terrific weight on my shoulders. I forget her exact words (I wish I could remember) but I remember the sense . She visiualised me being pushed down by this weight across both shoulders. That certainbly describes very accurately how I feel about things - mainly Edna. But is that real or is it made worse by my poor self image? I managed to cure myself of depression 3 years ago by doing excercises to help my self image. I came off anti-depressant less than 6 months after doing 'Change your life in 7 days' And that was after 10 years on and off the drugs.
No-one can get me out of this pit I am except me. I need to find the way out. I did it before - and I willl do it again.
I will start by admitting that to have lost ANY wieght over the last month is pretty damn remarkable and shows I have been doing something right. Thats 6 1lbs in 12 weeks. OK I will never be slimmer of the year - but I wasnt aming to be. I put the weight on slowly - probably half a pund a week. There is nothing wrong with taking it off slowly.
And all the other issues in my life? Well I suspoect I will cope better once I've got the correct perspective on things - including me.
So let me make a plan for today to keep myself focussed. I need to pay 2 bills, make a phonecall and go and do some painting at Steve's house. I need to go to Edna's to get the one bill (its for her) but that isnt a very difficult programeme for today - and it will acheive a lot.
I need to acheive things to feel good abut myself. I wonder what that says about me? Answers on a psotcard please to....... or as a comment on the blog!!
OK so I can now start again How many times have I tried to restart? I am beggining to feel like a broken record. I need to find a way to break the viscious circle I seem to be in.
One of the things the medium said to me was that I have a terrific weight on my shoulders. I forget her exact words (I wish I could remember) but I remember the sense . She visiualised me being pushed down by this weight across both shoulders. That certainbly describes very accurately how I feel about things - mainly Edna. But is that real or is it made worse by my poor self image? I managed to cure myself of depression 3 years ago by doing excercises to help my self image. I came off anti-depressant less than 6 months after doing 'Change your life in 7 days' And that was after 10 years on and off the drugs.
No-one can get me out of this pit I am except me. I need to find the way out. I did it before - and I willl do it again.
I will start by admitting that to have lost ANY wieght over the last month is pretty damn remarkable and shows I have been doing something right. Thats 6 1lbs in 12 weeks. OK I will never be slimmer of the year - but I wasnt aming to be. I put the weight on slowly - probably half a pund a week. There is nothing wrong with taking it off slowly.
And all the other issues in my life? Well I suspoect I will cope better once I've got the correct perspective on things - including me.
So let me make a plan for today to keep myself focussed. I need to pay 2 bills, make a phonecall and go and do some painting at Steve's house. I need to go to Edna's to get the one bill (its for her) but that isnt a very difficult programeme for today - and it will acheive a lot.
I need to acheive things to feel good abut myself. I wonder what that says about me? Answers on a psotcard please to....... or as a comment on the blog!!
Sunday, 26 April 2009
Self image
Yesterday was a very VERY bad food day. But I did get an amazing boost to my self esteem = and the possibility of an interesting new option that could continue to boost my self esteem.
I went on a ghost hunt last night and ended up having an amazing conversation with one of the mediums. I am an open minded sceptic about things paranormal. I have seen something I have to describe as a 'ghost' but dont feel I have sufficient knowledge to say what a 'ghost' is. I believe in psychic powers and mediumship - but don't assume they are talking to the dead. I am also very aware of how such things can be faked in the right circumstances. Last night I was priviledged to witness an improptu reading, during a break in the main activity of the night, that was not being staged for anyone's benefit. And it was obvious from the reactions of the person receving the information that the information was spot on. The person receiving the reading had not sought one - and the medium was not gaining anything by giving it. It was totally spontaneous. Then a few minutes later I was in a private converstaion with the medium (who sought me out) and she gave me some very uncanny insights some of which could have been deduced by a clever 'cold reader' but some of which could not - and I know no-one else at the event knew the information she gave me.
I have always been fascinated by the paranormal and psychic powers. I have always wished I had some sort of power. It woudl make me feel a bit special. The medium beleives everyone has a 6th sense - and that anyone can train themselves to use it. So I am going to try since the one ability I have that could be psychic in origin (empathy) is something I would like to develop for all sorts of reasons.
Paul's programmes are underpinned by a very subtle spirituality . His core message in all his programmes is know yourself, love yourself - because until your love yourself you can't love anyone else or really achieve anything becasue all your time is spent trying to change yourself. OK in the weight programme you are trying to change something very fundamental about yourself - but part of that change is learning to love and apprecate yourself AS YOU ARE. Its all about changing your perceptions. You are not a fat failure - you are a unique human being who has something special to offer the world.But knowing and understanding yourself are at the core of all the major religions. I suppressed my spiritual side for years. I now cultivate it and I know I do best when I am in tune with the spiritual needs. Training my sixth sense is well in accordnace with that.
I am excited even though I have a horrible feeling that when I do the bosy test in a few minutes I will not be receiving good news.
I went on a ghost hunt last night and ended up having an amazing conversation with one of the mediums. I am an open minded sceptic about things paranormal. I have seen something I have to describe as a 'ghost' but dont feel I have sufficient knowledge to say what a 'ghost' is. I believe in psychic powers and mediumship - but don't assume they are talking to the dead. I am also very aware of how such things can be faked in the right circumstances. Last night I was priviledged to witness an improptu reading, during a break in the main activity of the night, that was not being staged for anyone's benefit. And it was obvious from the reactions of the person receving the information that the information was spot on. The person receiving the reading had not sought one - and the medium was not gaining anything by giving it. It was totally spontaneous. Then a few minutes later I was in a private converstaion with the medium (who sought me out) and she gave me some very uncanny insights some of which could have been deduced by a clever 'cold reader' but some of which could not - and I know no-one else at the event knew the information she gave me.
I have always been fascinated by the paranormal and psychic powers. I have always wished I had some sort of power. It woudl make me feel a bit special. The medium beleives everyone has a 6th sense - and that anyone can train themselves to use it. So I am going to try since the one ability I have that could be psychic in origin (empathy) is something I would like to develop for all sorts of reasons.
Paul's programmes are underpinned by a very subtle spirituality . His core message in all his programmes is know yourself, love yourself - because until your love yourself you can't love anyone else or really achieve anything becasue all your time is spent trying to change yourself. OK in the weight programme you are trying to change something very fundamental about yourself - but part of that change is learning to love and apprecate yourself AS YOU ARE. Its all about changing your perceptions. You are not a fat failure - you are a unique human being who has something special to offer the world.But knowing and understanding yourself are at the core of all the major religions. I suppressed my spiritual side for years. I now cultivate it and I know I do best when I am in tune with the spiritual needs. Training my sixth sense is well in accordnace with that.
I am excited even though I have a horrible feeling that when I do the bosy test in a few minutes I will not be receiving good news.
Saturday, 25 April 2009
Healthy reflection
'When was the last time your doctor told you to stay home and watch "Seinfeld"? Or suggested a night out at the circus? Or told you to play fetch with a dog? It probably hasn't happened, but the day may not be far off. Laughter and fun are great ways to break down the walls of stress, preventing both mental and physical damage. Play time loosens up joints constricted by tension and poor posture. It brightens your attitude and is a healthy outlet for the most troubled thoughts. Even during our time off, it seems like we still spend a lot of time working--as a handyman, chauffer, mechanic, negotiator, therapist, cook, activist, or whatever is called for. Next time you're starting to feel the strain, think about how long it's been since you just played for the fun of it. It might be longer than you think. Then go buy yourself a toy.'
I think the answer to this one for me is probably too long - but I don;t seem to have the time to play at the moment.
Still I do take 'me 'time.
I'm feeling down again - and Tony's upset stomach isn't helping. I just hope he does make it to the ghost hunt. I\ll still go even if he doesnt, but I am very fed up of the way Tony so often ends up poorly when we are due to go out. I know it isnnt deliberate - but it does make me wonder what is going on in his subconcious.
I think the answer to this one for me is probably too long - but I don;t seem to have the time to play at the moment.
Still I do take 'me 'time.
I'm feeling down again - and Tony's upset stomach isn't helping. I just hope he does make it to the ghost hunt. I\ll still go even if he doesnt, but I am very fed up of the way Tony so often ends up poorly when we are due to go out. I know it isnnt deliberate - but it does make me wonder what is going on in his subconcious.
Friday, 24 April 2009
A new day
I've made a good start today. A really satisfying workout -including an island lap. I wasnt hungry when I got up but after the workout I was and I have just had a delicious healthy breakfast, eaten slowly (although not as slowly as I would like) and I have managed to leave a token slice of kiwi fruit in the bowl. But I am still hungry so I think toast may be in the offing if I still feel hungry when I've finished my drink. I am hoping to get into the garden today and give my plants some hope of success and I'm thinking of planting some carrots if I can buy a container.
Steve has just turned up :-) That is always good for my mood. Hopefully that is a sign that I am on track today. A good day today will help me out of the doldrums even further.
Steve has just turned up :-) That is always good for my mood. Hopefully that is a sign that I am on track today. A good day today will help me out of the doldrums even further.
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