Wow - what is this unaccustomed sensation? Oh yes - its me being able to breathe through my nose most of the time. I think I am getting better. In fact I KNOW I am getting better. I'm not going to work today - but the walk through the park would be enjoyable not a chore.

I am still tired, still got a cough, and am still sniffing lots - but I am on the mend. In fact I think I will use the wiifit today.

So the plan today is some gentle exercise (20 minutes) maybe do some work on my portfolio, maybe go back to the garage and decide if I AM going to buy a new car. But I WILL sort out the documents that are needed for the registry office to confirm we are who we say we are, and are NOT married to anyone else so we can book our wedding. The plan is that we celebrate my 60th birthday next year by getting married.

Tonight I at least will pop over to Dudley to a 'business meeting' for spiritual/holistic workers to network and get cards out there. I hope Tony will come with me. I've also had another offer to take some cards so the word is getting out there. I have also had some business cards done just for me, just for the reiki and hypnotherapy. I reckon I can leave those in places like doctors and dentists where I wouldn't want to even HINT at the readings and mediumship side of things!

Well I can't just sit here all day - I've got things to do . You have NO idea how good it is to feel some motivation back at last!!!!

I have been feeling rather poorly this week. I have caught Tony's cold . So I haven't been doing much of anything apart from resting. I tried 10 minutes on the wii fit 2 days ago - and it knackered me. Yesterday I walked to the post box and back - a round trip of just over 600 steps (I counted my steps one way) and it knackered me. The mere thought of the walk across the park to work fills me with horror. My legs just don't want to hold me. So I have to accept my limitations. However I also don't have a huge appetite so I guess it all works out. Frankly I need to focus on getting fit enough to go back to work next week - and anything else is unimportant. Normal service will be resumed NEXT week

I had my first hypnotherapy client yesterday. And I may have 2 more hypnotherapy clients and one reiki client. And today I am going to the college for a CPD day.

I have lost some weight !. I stepped on the scales yesterday and I have lost another one and a half pounds. And that knowledge gave me the impetus to resist biscuits last night. Mind you I spent a fair portion of the evening in the treatment room with my patient.

I have also remembered by certificates are only valid for 6 months - so I need to get a m,ove on with the portfoilio. I am off on Tuesday so I will make a start then

Things feel good. But I know I am facing a day of temptation with the biscuits at the college. I think some cereal bars in my bag may be a good idea.

But on the whole things STILL feel good :-)

I have been very productive this morning. As well as the normal kitchen sort out, I tidied the living room . I have a client coming for hypnotherapy and while she will only be passing through the living room, I want to make a reasonable impression on her. So the floor by the bookcase is clearer, and the coffee table has a visible top to it,

The area round the pc is still pretty um........ chaotic is the best word I think.

OK so how am I feeling this morning? Well I am hungry - so I am eating breakfast as I type this. This is good because I eat slowly, but bad because I am not giving the food my full attention, But it is very nice. One weetabix with a kiwi fruit and fromage frais. I am so glad I found fromage frais. Its much healthier than yoghurt.

The weather has turned very autumny over the past 24 hours - and a complete contrast to the heatwave we had on Monday and Tuesday. It isn't raining - but it has been - and more rain is forecast. It is going to take discipline to walk in future I think. But at current petrol prices, using the car would be ridiculously expensive for a drive of less than a mile. And the parking problems at the other end are ridiculous. So I am sure I will be good and walk - even in the snow.

I am full of plans. Plans for running a weight loss group session, plans for getting in touch with DAT's, plans to contact local surgeries to see if having a tame hypnotherapist is something they would like. And the bid one - plans to book a room at the college and see how much work I can get.

I can enquire about that one tomorrow.


I haven't stepped on the scales - or used the wii fit for days. Part of me wants to, the other part of me is scared t incase I have put on weight. But I know if I am sensible about what I do I WILL be losing weight . I need to work on not eating when I am NOT really hungry. Biscuits and coffee in the evenings are very nice. I must think about why I feel I need biscuits. If I wasn't eating biscuits I would be really confident about my eating.

I must dash or I will be late to work. I have 35 minutes to meditate shower dress and get out - and I haven't made my lunch yet. Time to stop talking and start doing!

I have a new accountant - I met her and finalised the details last night. I am going to wind up "Sally Haynes Ltd' I only created it because the agencies gave me no option. So form mow on 'Krystal Wolf Holisitc Care' will take all our income from spiritual work and hypnotherapy - plus my occasional locums at Little Aston.

AND and and and .........I have a real live hypnotherapy client as a result of the psychic fair on Saturday. She heasn't baulked at the fee I quoted.

So despite oversleeping this morning I am in a very upbeat mood. I only have one reiki referal at the hospice - and a home visit to boot so my table will get used.

I feel tired and achey - there is no doubt work at the hospital is very tiring. But today is hospice day which is always good.

I feel slightly hungry so I will eat. I really need to meditate before I go out - but I a, not sure I will have time. My discipline is slipping - and I must NOT let it

Yesterday was back to the grindstone with the hospital - and it was VERY busy. I didn't leave till 4.45. As I walked to work, and walked a lot round the hospital I can certainly say I 'moved my body'

I only ate one of my sandwiches at lunchtime. I wasn't hungry for the other one. But I did eat it later when I was hungry. I also went for a walk round the outside of the hospital . I decided it would help me clear my head. Also we are approaching the time when I hardly see daylight. So if I can get inot the habit of taking a stroll outside at lunch it will be good for me in so many ways. I tried that tactic at Russels Hall - but it felt awkward because I didn't have a badge and always had to wait to be let into the department

I have bene thinking about the group 'weight loss' session I am hoping to do. Trying to think about the most common mistakes people trying to lose weight make. I think it has to be eating when they are not hungry, and not really listening to want their body is telling them it wants. Now is that because those are MY main mistakes? I know I want to therapise myself too but I must be careful to listen to what my clients tell me as well.

I need to design a questionnaire for such clients to fill in. I also found myself wondering how much Sarah would charge for me to use that downstairs room at her Bournville salon. Its great feeling creative.

So I am feelign upbeat - but rather achey this morning. I am hungry so I will eat in a bit, then all I have to do is my meditation and then get ready for work. O have just over an hour to get it all done. Its all such a rush at the moment. But it feels like a good rush.

Changes changes

This blog isn't JUST about weight loss and a journey to a healthier lifestyle - it is also about me managing the changes in my life . When I started it, it was in response to to the trauma caused by Alan's death. I was still in full time work at the hospital - and hadn't even HEARD of reiki.

If I had been told then where I would be NOW, I would have laughed and assumed it was all a huge joke. But here I am over 3 years later, a reiki practitioner, hypnotherapist, psychic reader, developing medium, and a locum pharmacist. I have also survived a REAL cancer problem, as opposed to the low level false alarm I had at the start of my year of two thousand and hate.

For the first time I have a realistic chance to earn money doing something else apart from pharmacy. And yesterday I had an amazing experience when I did a favor for the organisers of the psychic fayre. One of their regular clients was very distressed, had a horrendous headache, and Karl asked if I would give her some reiki. I did, I also gave her the benefit of my counseling skills, and advised her she could do with some regular counseling to help her sort herself out. By the end of 15 minutes she was much calmer, her headache had gone, and she was asking for my card so she can make an appointment with me for some more reiki and/or maybe some hypnotherapy to help her with her problems.

That has shown me I AM on the right course. I needed ALL my skills to help her, including my pharmacy skills as she is on anti-depressants. And strangely I am going on a CPD course on Friday all about hypnotherapy with mental health issues. So if she DOES feel hypnotherapy would be useful, I will be more confident about NOT causing problems because of her mental health issues.

Of course she may never ring up - but there is a realistic chance she will. Also Shaz ha said she has been considering hypnotherapy - so she is an almost guaranteed client if she goes ahead.

So there are a number of signs I am in for some changes in my life again - but this time they are planned, managed and WANTED.

I haven't been a disciplined as I should be last week with exercise, eating or with my HPD portfolio. But next week I am back to work - that always makes more disciplined.

But I have seen things that make me realise I have absorbed Paul's golden rules. Last night at dinner I couldn't finish my main course. And I didn't even think about a full english breakfast at the hotel. I wouldn't have enjoyed it.

So I am thinking much more about my eating decisions. And I have a chance to do some hypnotherapy with people who want to lose weight. So I know that will help me focus on my own eating issues.